WFM CA's done too. just got a new one, law. bleah. Trying to destress myself cos' otherwise i'll have my period again...

School blew by pretty uneventfully, hahah but still had alot to do cos' of the rest of the day, in the evening i went for confession at the church of St. Ignatius, first time in a year i think... told the priest, father J J, who's an old friend of the family coincidentally, how i was losing my faith in christianity and all that...

what he said put me in a very pensive mood. he told me that suffering, pain and joy is what establishs us as humans, or something like that...... and if my life is all peachy keen and rosy, without suffering, without pain, probably i won't feel much of a need to go to church or pray.... only in adversity would we turn back to god... hmmm... it actually makes sense to me, cos' right now i think i am kinda stuck in a rut, no big happy things going on but no problems either...
that's not to say this theory doesn't have flaws in it. i became an agnostic because of pain, problems and the suffering i see around me in the first place, not because of a lack of it. kaoz.

going to have to think more on this...

ANYWAY, after that my parents and i went down to Holland Village for grocery shopping and for me to get my supper... whilst waiting for them to check out one whole cart's worth of 'oh just for tomorrow's breakfast', i saw a scruffy old south indian man in a faded shirt and sarong trudging along the corridor outside the cold storage, he was examining the dustbins, picking up used cigarettes, hoping to get a puff...

I remember thinking that that really shows what's wrong with most of the world, i'm not a communist or anything but seeing this kind of smoker, poor until need to reuse hongkie, in an area with so much affluence, just seems odd.
Wealthy people seem so at ease seeing, or rather ignoring other poor people, at most they'll move out of the way, not out of courtesy but rather a desire to avoid touching them.
Singapore's capitalist stance has created generations of moolah seeking drones with no regard for people-interaction and people in general.

And then i saw Denise Keller in cold storage. Fwah she's hot!!! also tall man.. was with this shorter guy who can compete with Dennis for the title of volcano face.
Her face is so beautiful i could almost ignore the visible layer of obviously oil-based make-up on it, with a svelte figure, very proportionate... has charisma too... the kind of attractant that just turns heads... woah. Gorgeous.

Well, that's the end of another long post... what have i learnt? Absolutely nothing! hahaha tomorrow's another day! chillz!

Listening to:
Incubus - Made for TV Movie
Norah Jones - Above Ground