Friday, December 31, 2004


eh note to ms. k w a who will be sniffing around people's blogs on monday-> the mtv clip about the underwear. just click. it's currently the top link. but then not sure if kontraband can load on school network.

okay, moving on to the blog portion of today. had nct tutorial at 9. woke up at 9. best part is my group's turn to head up the tutorial. oh well. after that went gym but dunno why damn weak, do abit only bth. think need to quit smoking.

then go play lan with runjian and dennis, who was 'flirting' with the counter girl. that's about it. family came back today too. yay! means i dunneed to go out and walk like hell just to get food at night. god i need to get my driving license faster.

in other news, i have been posted to 5aatchi for my attachment (the 5 is only cos' i dowan to spell it properly wait later kena googled jia lat), happy happy about it cos' my pay is not bad and my LO (liason officer) is ms. n who's nice, which is good. (sorry dennis)

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

alright, i guess i should update. thing is so much stuff has happened in the past month i don't know where to begin, which is why i've delayed blogging so long.

spent christmas at andrew's place, playing onimusha 3. heh. it was so gay, four guys lounging around and watching a stupid korean show about sex. speaking of which, everyone should go watch this show called "sex is zero", which is like, the korean version of american pie.

some poor guy does all sorts of weird shit in the show, and gets caught out by the girl he likes alot doing disgusting stuff, like kena mistaken for molester and when he was licking some jam off a pin-up of a model at the punani area. anyway, is sick and hilarious, but the plot is despite the girl detesting him at the beginning he does everything for her and eventually they end up together.

Which. got me to thinking even tho i got no hope now i should just continue doing my best, as friends first and not dare to hope for more i guess. and for some reason i'm finding more and more friends in more or less the same situation as me, where the girl they like is attached then they feel like shit. yes go for it man!

anyhow, after the show we traipsed down to cine to watch kung fu hustle at 4 am. which i think was good despite the rest (andrew adam jana jaiyme) disagreeing. of course, for the two girls it may be cos' they slept thru most of it. after that go sit outside taka talk cock for a while, saw all the rubbish along orchard road due to christmas celebrations, saw some poor guy lost the wallet looking everywhere for it, saw some ang moh drunk liao buy more beer drink summore then merlion. crap la. people are shite.

moving on, now we got school liao, two modules only, one's professional preparation and the other's new communication technologies, not bad because we got three days school weekly only, but bad cos' got project and need to do a lot of preparation. in fact, today was supposed to meet my group do our prep for tutorial cos' this thursday our turn to facilitate.

reached abit late but then this idiot who i cannot name say he need to leave because he need to go do something i cannot say because he told me not to. haven't start zao liao. bugger. so end up discuss with EK only.

anyway, a couple of photos to brighten up my blog!

poly forum, part of the group i was in (economic opportunities), normal looking people.


still poly forum, now not so normal looking people. please be unable to spot me.


went kl with a few frens, andrew's not in this one cos' he take photo. went to the theme park in berjaya square cos' heard roller coaster damn fun, turned out to be a disappointment, but got other fun rides, like this centrifugal force one. spin³!

ooyar, one last thing i want to say is i feel really terrible cos' i lost my aunt's ang pao on christmas eve. feel really bad and guilty cos' it was from her. when i realised it i went and retraced my steps all the way back to her place (cos' i went there for dinner) and spent like half an hour searching for it. she's the one who brought me up, and in this world i feel i only owe my lfie to three people, my parents and her.
she was the one who got my brother and i jade cruccifixes long ago when my parents got us baptised after we were born, which is why i wear it all the time, not because i'm particularly religious.

okay that's enough for now, i shall endeavour to update more frequently. and to give a fun site to play games (for ppl who nvr take cda) here -> reflex games

Saturday, December 04, 2004

yo in a singaporean cybercafe this time.
internet still down. guess the people who say i'm not proactive in solving problems are correct.
anyway, off to malaysia again to go....um. shopping. just for a couple of days, super broke and all that.

bang cock, contrary to my expectations, was fun, cos' no one paid attention during the serious discussions and stuff, everyone was just waiting for night fall.....then go out play. wth. met some really cool people there and made many many new friends.

got plenty photos and 'a' video from there as well, but i'll be damned if i put it up.

in other news, i have no idea how the double a ad is doing but thanks to everyone who voted! and especially those who voted for their whole family! thanks alot guys! love you*

*if you're not gay.

gotta go liao, will update long long one day when i come back, cos' i realise all my posts are just quick footnotes then a fuck off liao. :D

Friday, November 12, 2004

Right. I'm in a Malaysian Cybercafe now.... back in KL for my cousin's wedding, but skipped out on the rehearsal to go gallivanting instead... heh.

Haven't updated for over a month, cos' internet was down. modem decided to take a piss, and i haven't got it back up yet. 'someone' says that's indicative of how i solve all my problems, i.e. relationship stuff as well... not proactive enough. Bah.

Lots of stuff been happening, school's ended, been wasting my life away as usual, holidaying around, only two objectives this holiday..... go gym train up and get my driving license ASAP, martial arts on hold because firstly, my sifu's gone to the states, and i have no money to take up anything else anyway.

Made some new friends in the form of a group of the senior DMC graduates, cos' helped out in their video shoot for Double A paper, which incidentally got shortlisted so am now supposed to help advertise for it...

The ad will be screened between 18th - 26th November, time dunno, on Channel U and I. Go vote vote vote! How i dunno also, figure out yourself. go www.doublea.com.sg or something. Basicially it's just a 30 second clip of a horny deprived pervert getting it on with a piece of paper. Acted out by me. >_<

In other news, went Genting with the fags from my class, waaaah i love Malaysia, the land of cheap ciggies. ­1/3 the price and double the potency. Wicked! Quite fun la...went theme park as well, which i feel i'm a bit overaged for...

Also, Peggy (that's my 28th month old german shepherd monster) won a shitload of prizes at the annual GSD show, usually the youngest participant (that's her) wouldn't stand a chance but she still won. Woohoo! Furthermore, she was awarded the title of Siegerin (that's baddest of the bad ass bitches), which means something like uber champion.

In between all that, bumming around.... but very sian. Friends all die off to dunno where, have to find new ones... 'she''s attached now, so no hope for me. so sadded. oh well, at least i'm in malaysia where ciggies and drinks are cheap. Woohoo!!!!! days of debauchery here i come...

And after that go bang cock for poly forum which will be so fucking lame. Kinda regret signing up. wanted to go cos' it was cruise but this year is go to thailand...sian. then the people all so fucking immature retarded, read my previous post on this to find out more....1 min left on my account so bye!

Friday, October 08, 2004

Now sitting in CDA class, skipped ICMT second week in a row cos' i overslept again. Damn, hope my attendence covers 75%. Been ploughing through projects and stuff as usual. Very cyclical life. This time each year for the past three years i've probably been blogging about the same crap, project deadlines.

Supposed to be doing the Flash game now but oh well. Too much inertia cos' the deadline's relatively far away compared to other stuff due. Shitty life, and not just cos' of school. Been running alot lately, bleed out all the negative emotions i been feeling, plus, it's healthy!

And...my internet is still down... got new modem but it didn't come with any drivers, sian ½.

Monday, September 27, 2004

Sunday
Went to jurong east library purportedly to do project, end up reading off abit of microfilms to get supporting articles for ICMT, then dinner... didn't do much and kinda wasted everyone's time today i think. Oh well, fun times with queers.

Met up with safuan to watch les fils du vent/the great challenge, the sequel to the kickass Yamakasi, the french movie with 7 jumping monkeys. Prime example of miscommunication. I told him i was at "Jurong library"... den he was rushing down and went to........ Boon Lay (Jurong Point). Guess i forgot to add an "East" to my description. Oh well, fun times with queers.

Anyway, we went in expecting an action show, with 'capoeira-esque' acrobatics and fighting.... but damn, the movie blew us away. The Great Challenge was so moving it actually made Saf cry! In all the years i've known him he's never cried, but after watching the movie...whoa man.

It was -h i la r i o u s-! Almost everyone on set, from the director to the gaffer must all be dead drunk for the duration of filming, except for the chereographer, who was fantastic. The film has absolutely no storyline, and horribly planned character development, and not much research either i think. It's super corny as well, totally retarded acting (at least it was consistent retardedness) and long panning shots of people walking from point A to B. Totally no link. After the movie we were laughing so damn hard Saf started crying. But the acrobatics was marvelous! Le Parkour!

Best part of the show is its multi-racial theme. There are
Mixed blood Eurasians and
French-speaking black,chinese and french guys, caught in between
Chinese triads and
Japanese Yakuza
in Bangkok, Thailand.

Think that through. Hahahahahahaha!!!!

Listening to:
Third Eye Blind - Wake For Young Souls
Finger Eleven - One Thing
John Mayer - Love Soon

Saturday, September 25, 2004

Oh wicked, it's been a week since i posted... been wasting my life away. Kinda losing interest in school stuff so everytime in project discussions or what not i can't wait to get away.

Been going out like everyday as well, just hanging out and chilling with friends. Madness. Anyway, my life is one of contradictions, my upbringing against my training, conflicted heart against rational brain, questions against certainties, emotions switching like a clock's pendulum.

What is it like to just let go? Before you learn anything, you just anyhow bom and let fly with everything you've got (talking in martial arts context), but once you start training, you learn limits, holding back, control, and to wear a mask. And never, -never-, get into a fight unless your life depends on it.

Sometimes i just wish i could cut loose and go all out, not worry an iota about anything for once. Just, be free. (general context now...) Waxing philosophy now: however, to be free also means free of emotions ma. So basically being totally free would mean to be devoid of emotions as well.

Dunno la, alot of pent up feelings, and i'm sick of always holding back. Oh well, so what can i do? Just make clouds. Heh.

Trying not to let someone affect me so much but failing miserably. Dying inside of more than one cause. I want to cry and laugh at the same time. Really extremes of emotions man...

Hahahaa oh yar i just remembered, today when i went out with CX, Fa Fa and fuckhead jethro for dinner and talk cock session, i almost got banged down, k not really, just knocked down maybe, by a car earlier. Then i was grinning at the woman in the passenger seat who was staring back at me with this absolutely horrified expression. I was smiling and wondering why i was smiling whenever this kind of thing happens. Think i don't treasure life enough.

Listening to:
Jessica Riddle - Even Angels Fall
Jack Johnson - Bubbletoes
Vanessa Carlton - White Houses

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Went beach today with ahmad and met assorted friends (chaota mango and lesbian partner, brian and many many who else) there... anyway, had fun running, bioing girls and swimming over to the small isle at siloso and sparring over there, now i have a bruised forearm and a cranky knee but still fun and games. Only through this kind of constant beating up each other can improve....so....anyone else want to spar? =D

After that the whole day kinda went downhill... but not disappointed because of the 'expectations' thing. if you have none you can't be disappointed. Heh. Now there's a party going on at my home and i'm in my room blogging... oh well.

Listening to:
Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You
Liz Phair - Why Can't I

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Go watch.

Wednesday was a pretty fun day, or was supposed 2 be... school for only one hour, den i was hanging around school hoping to see 'her', if only to say hi, didn't manage to, so off i went to the gym.

Damn, the martial arts community in Singapore is like really³ small. Fell into conversation with one of the personal trainers and realised we had a mutual friend, who i was training together with last time, one thing led to another, and we ended up trading tips and kicking pads for a while...

Being the humble person i am, of course i withheld my true power and didn't blow him away with my mighty jin gang tui(k la i nvr train damn long so i suck alot more now) , but DAMN, that made me realise i am very gian to go back in training... lacking in stability, the kind you get from hitting targets and bags on a regular basis. oh well...

Anyhoo, met up with ahmad after that, who made me wait for him for two hours, but as he was sending his gf, ada home, how can i be pissed if it's for love? hahaha! Watched the bourne supremacy, which is a pretty kickass film but with jerky camerawork.

jason bourne is damn cool, can plan and execute everything calmly even with a bullet in his shoulder. I learnt new ways to stalk people and burn down a house with nothing but a gas line, toaster and magazine...

"They don't make mistakes, nothing they do is random, everything they do has an objective, has a target." *paraphrased cos' i can't rem* So cool!!! i wanna be a cia assassin, failing that, the mythical ISD guy who goes around tapping political dissidents on the shoulder and saying 'excuse me, i'm from isd' is fine...

sigh, topic 3 for today's post, is....i can't stop thinking about her, all the time, during the storywriting in lecture, at the gym,in the movies, on the bus home, especially now, when i have nothing to occupy my mind with...
Don't know how things are going because i haven't has a chance to tell her how i feel about her... indeed, i haven't gone out with her for a looooooooong time now. I can only cherish the few moments i see her in school to carry me through the days, and pray for a smile as i gaze on that cherubic visage...

Listening to:
switchfoot - on fire
utada hikaru - first love
dishwalla - counting blue cars

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Hahahahahahahahahaha ran across this hilarious clip on kontraband.com.
How to deal with pesky neigbour's dog... watched this clip i couldn't stop laughing, check it out!

Had poly forum seminar thingy today, pretty disappointed at the level of discussion... cos' the questions asked were... surprisingly narrowminded and yet still managed to be out of point! Considering the theme, youth coming up into next gen of leadership, the questions put forth ranged the whole gamut from:

why no license plates starting with SEX,
to why only got mungens, and few mats in the army,
to why don't gahmen do more to support local "Insert generic special interests here, be it arts, entrepreneurship, or oddly enough, polytechnic scholarships and grants."
to, my personal favourite: is singapore at risk from JI sleeper cells and invasions by mad generals from neigbouring countries.

Why,Why,Whine. If you notice a similarity in the questions, they are all passive forms of criticizing the government's policies, and nothing actually to do with what WE (the youth) can do or need to learn in preparation for ruling/ruining the country in future. K the last one's just too dumb for me to comment on. Some questions were good but.........

.......overall, it's still damn suckass lor. You get the feeling people ask questions to act seh only, and they don't really give two thirds of a purple dinosaur whether their query is answered or not, they just want to go up and talk and show that they are 'keenly aware of global current affairs and local issues'.

Furthermore the facilitators and VIPs were all going 'oh you are the cream of the crop', 'student leaders in your own right' and shit like that. Wah lan eh KP sia. If i think the ppl going for PF is dumb, and i'm part of that group....damn!!! I'm dumb.

Oh well, more importantly, got a couple of chio bu in my group! Yay! Actually, not so yay, don't care about that anymore.

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you;
You are my only one.
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do;
You are my only, my only one

Listening to:
Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You
Dashboard Confessional - Rapid Hope Loss
Yellowcard - Only One (thx lin!)

Friday, September 10, 2004

Today is friday! the stars will come out today finally! Anyway, m now in school early for project meeting with class fags, so blogging now.

This whole holidays kinda like is do project week, machiam need to keep coming back to school so no difference. Sooo many many CAs, MIA, ICMT, CIBM, WFW to hand up within this week... sian ½.

But at least means i will be busy doing stuff so won't be thinking about her all de time..
Wednesday i went to act gay after our project meeting, and watched 13 going on 30 with my latest gay partner RunJian, cute show budden make me sad also... Hahaha melancholic at least.

After the movie, went to meet carol for a drink and chatted about lots of stuff. Nice meeting up again cos' even tho she's a pretty close fren of mine we haven't talked or gone out for a long ass time. Incidentally here's something for you to do: If you know Carol, the next time you see her, just give her 10cents, and tell her it's for the 'In The Name Of Love' fund.

Thursday went out with jana for a drink and met her 'dennis-sim-lookalike', chatted alot about alot of stuff again, and it's really really nice meeting up with old friends i haven't seen in like... months. Heh, maybe cos' such a long passage of time that's why got lots of stuff to talk about...

andrew joined us at the dubliner irish pub a while later, and then we went for supper at the meridien, talk a helluva lot of cock. Heh, now i kinda miss the old days when every1 from sparc would hang out and all... oh well.

Listening to:
Radiohead - No Surprises
Copeland - Coffee
Tao Ze - Regular Friends

Monday, September 06, 2004

feeling really saaaad now. realise i'm actually a pretty anti-social bastard, like i just delete messages, don't return calls or anything from most people unless i need something from them too... it's like i'm turning into the kind of superficial person i despise...

Henceforth i shall make the effort to just call up old friends to say hey how are you! and take the initiative to keep in contact with people...

Budden that's not the reason i'm sad now... it's because of her (what else right?)... think i'm hoping for too much to come out of nothing. Anyway, she just said something that may seem pretty trivial to people, but it just made me feel the worst about myself since... god knows when... With just one sentence she can do that, wipe out my self-confidence and any happy feelings i had. She's the first person who can affect me so...

Am now thinking about what Ning said to me before. Anyways~

I just got home from sending her back and was feeling all shitty inside when i got a call from Haz at 12.20am, saying she not enough cash maybe to pay for supper at the 24Hrs prata place outside my house, so being the nice bloke i am, volunteered to walk out to bail her out.

Told my dad it'd be only 15 minutes, ended up sitting down and chatting with a bunch of people (haz, eva, ben, jacq and ifte) i dunno till about 2.30, when we move to my condo's swimming pool and talk till 6 in the morning. >_< but in all fairness i probably wouldn't have been able to sleep today anyway.

Soooo...ifte, jacq's bf, came over to talk to me about how crappy i'm feeling, and gave me the whole 'it's not worth it and u shld enjoy ur life more' spiel... and flirting tips. hahahahaha! yes, basically what ning told me but in a more 'guy' version. So yes, i shall try to heck care!

Lastly, meeting ahmad later for breakfast, hopefully can cheer him up cos' he's having a shitty time too. and maybe meeting runjian and his brother for movie if timing fits.

Listening to sad sounding songs:
X Japan - Tears (Windstruck OST and shut the fuck up alan. hahaha)
Jay Chou - Zhi Zhan Zhi Zhang
Oleander - I Walk Alone

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Yo update!

Lessee... lots of new songs.... thanks to alan sending me jay chou's new album, people who send me songs and ereen's blog which has a really really really super cute song that just gets better each time i hear it...

Whole week never do any work....but everything worked out. Crapped out a pretty good MIA paper in 1 day, thanks to my dad who's so damn smart. He gave me plenty of insanely logical arguments and examples, maybe a little unrelated, but the principle is there.

Thursday - Had to rush because i was meeting 'her' fo a movie, Quill. My god, terence was right. He told me when he watched, at the end of the movie can hear all the tissue packets opening and the whole cinema crying... then really after the show got sia...hahahaha it was hilarious! So many people crying after the movie... den i felt quite bad for laughing afterwards but nvm...

... saw huishi and fren there (who also cried), who has since graduated and is now working at the Life shop or something at raffles selling furniture but the point is for some reason or other her voice and mannerism suddenly reminded me of a classmate of mine...



Michelle. *Thunderclap* *Shudder* (Hope she doesn't see this. >_<)

AAAAAnyways, i'm falling more and more in love with her every time i see her... (my dream girl, not michelle!). was going to put down more mushy stuff here, but i can't really express how i feel, into words so........ you geddit.

Friday was a rushed day... blew through ICMT tutorial, then proceeded to start, on my CDA presentation for the Flash game. Fastforward 4 hours and i have a "tiny, wimpish" (Actual quote of CDA lecturer) presentation board... Ended up going for class late and kena having to present first! Heng i was in the toilet so i went like... third instead...

All things considered, i think can pass la, didn't botch it that badly... was pretty flustered while presenting so didn't manage to say all the points i wanted to... happily tho, my bullshit was mistaken for 'cool, intelligent answers' (Actual quote again.)

To end off, i miss her, didn't get to see her today so i'm feeling a bit down... oh well there's always the music...

Listening to:
1st Ladi - Never be replaced (Heard it on Ereen's blog... gogogo! You'll probably leave your IE open just to hear the song on loop)
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
Jay Chou - Yuan You Hui

Monday, August 30, 2004

Weekend over.... haven't done much work, tho i was supposed to...
Anyway, Daniels (one of the 03 asses), asked me to link up his survey on video game violence so it's on the right. Just click and help him do.....yay! my first advertisement! albeit non-paid...

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Here's a clip to keep you guys entertained to make up for the lack of blogging... Fat Beach Kid taken from kontraband.com...

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Effervescent!

Happy happy happy post here~ Past couple of days have been wizard! Monday i finished class early, cos' out of the whole class, only 5 people went....so tutor got a bit pek chek also i think...

Coincidentally finished an hour earlier, so managed to accompany her to work, was meeting ahmad, so it all worked out. =D met up with ning as well for lunch/brunch/tea, ended up running all over the place for the rest of the day, but damn, time flies when you're having fun.

Today finished class early again, cos' we got our first project component back, kinda fucked up that one but it's quite small percentage so i'm consoling myself there. Anyway, met her for movie, the notebook, ended up having to sit in the front row and cricking our necks.

So so so love to spend time with her... with her, everything else takes a backseat. Just end up non-stop grinning like an idiot all the time... Ning commented on that too. -_-' just being with her gives me a glow, like life's worth something, and i can't help but love everyone and everything around me (sorry about today dennis! haha).

Alright, can't remember anything else about the past few days, except her, so i shall blog off now... been listening to a few new really good ulu songs, posted one of them up....soo... enjoy!

Listening to:
Danny Scherr - Maybe You're Gone
Binocular - Don't Say Goodbye, Say Goodnight (up on the blog)
Finger Eleven - One Thing

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Okay update! Slacking the whole week, so school work's piling up, that's usual. Went beach again on saturday, that's becoming a usual thing too... planning on going like every saturday from now on. Anyone interested in going sentosa on saturday just message me or something...

No pics cos' no one bothered to bring camera, no one out of the shitload of people who went... coupla classmates, adele and chao ta mango, 3 03 guys, ahmad and ada, and assorted friends of friends. whoa!

So, anyway just throw in this pic of the (hopefully) last ever SPARC duty i'll do, the SP graduation ceremony, taken with peishan, fellow sparkie and (not fellow) graduand with merit and lots of distinctions. Would put a better one up but unfortunately, i mucked up this one and she didn't send me any others...


Moving on... when i left the house this morning i saw this tour group of students come down the one and only bus that goes my area....apparently they're on a treasure hunt or expedition of some sort.

And my house that area (pasir panjang, haw par villa there) is so ulu it's actually used alot for this kinda races/hunts... like everytime i see big groups of ginna running around, they must be looking at me thinking: "ooh a native! people actually live here!" Goddammit.

K i lazy to blog anymore. so goodnight and go read someone else's blog!

Listening to:
Jason Wade - You Belong To Me

Friday, August 13, 2004

And shepherds we shall be,
for thee my Lord for thee,
power hath descended forth from thy hand,
that our feet may swiftly carry out thy command.
We shall flow a river forth to thee,
and teeming with souls shall it ever be.

In nomine patri, et filii, et spiritu sancti.



Just watched Boondock Saints, a movie that i had never heard of before Dennis sent it to me, told me it's a great movie, and the fag hasn't even watched it yet.

Oh well, turned out to be a fantastic action-comedy movie! You should all go watch it, somehow. Got all my favourite elements, tattoo-sporting gun-toting irish-speaking vigilante brothers fucking over organised crime syndicates. Hahaha the irish accent is bloody cool, think Brad Pitt in Snatch but more coherent.

So anyway, a short synopsis of it would be two irish guys somehow, falling into the lot of being avenging angels (hence, saints) who fight fire with fire, killing off mobsters and stuff. They run into a brilliant gay FBI agent (played by the green goblin), who empathizes with them and decides to help, instead of arresting them.

The filming style is pretty unusual, the script banking heavily on flashback techniques, but the coolest part of the show is how they're sorta like christian hammers (think Hitman), so they make the sign of the cross before any action and chant this prayer before offing someone, plus, there's the Greco-Roman tradition of putting two pennies over the eyes of a corpse to send him off with money for the boatman, ala Troy.

Bah, just watch the show la, it's kickass!

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Kk, the blog portion of this post. Not much been happening, slacking in school this whole week, crap, everything's piling up.

Been having revelations about life recently, epiphanies popping all over, about love, friendship, life, whatever man... just feel more optimistic on one hand, but also feeling jaded, the cynicism that age brings... heh.

Oh yeah, more resolutions.... not to play LAN for at least another month, damn sian of it. not to waste time with people i don't give a shit about. and lastly...be honest! with everyone about everything!

Listening to:
Slick Shoes – Once Again
Dexter Freebish – Life Of Saturdays

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Hokay beach post~ like i said, the other day, saturday we went sentosa but luckily no 'michelle', saw a couple of hot chicks there but hey it's the beach man!


Went with joel, steph, clarence and wen qi, supposed 2 b more but kena tua. *Note how even tho we'd been there for a while clarence is still superwhite... his skin super resistant to tanning...


SAND PEOPLE! (sung to the tune of South Park's crab people episode 708)

Oh and i'm not that short! It just so happens the beach is sloping down...really!!


Laughing at my hair...


Still laughing at my hair.... funny meh?


Getting revenge... and i think this whole post is a bit gay because it's repeated pictures of the three of us, budden didn't take many photos anyway... thanks Joel for the pics!

Listening to:
Finch - Post Script
MovieLife - Walking On Glass

Monday, August 09, 2004

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!


yay! actually, whatever man. Thankfully, i don't have to go ndp this year! Can avoid hours of doing shite i don't like, smiling at pricks i want to slap, and essentially wondering why i'm supposed to feel proud doing something suited best to bimbos, i.e. ushering.

Sunday was transcendent. Went out with 'her', didn't do much, but she's reason enough for the whole day to be so wonderful~ ^-^ happyhappyhappyhappy

Anyway, on saturday went beach, will blog on that when Joel sends me the pics *hint hint*

Listening to:
Justincase - Without You
Steve Tyrell - A Kiss To Build A Dream On

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Feeling ebullient!

Monday, the start of another school week, came for a couple of lectures and slept through most of it.... ahhh kinda miss the feeling of sleeping in a lecture... Thanks AA!

Kept bumping into the dac class we 'fac'ed for... o_O, guess that'll keep happening every monday because apparently they use the same lecture hall right before and after us. Oh well, it could be worse, i could keep bumping into... ms. kwa.

Had WFW test (one-on-one web analysis session) after that, plenty of time to prep and have lunch too.... lucky thing Dennis went just ahead of me...

RunJian: "I feel more confident seeing Dennis do the test first..."

Me: "Yes, i'm so glad i'm going right after him, because by comparison i'll seem good."


Hahahaha yes, it's wonderful having such a supportive classmate! See Dennis, you inspire us! Anyhow, after the test came the best part of the day, heck, best part of the week!



Went out with 'her'! Finally! After four whole days of not seeing her! Damn, i got so nervous and jittery while waiting for her. Met, chatted and off we went to watch Connie & Carla at PS.

Sometimes, she can act so disaffected and distant it's disheartening, but when she laughs and smiles, oh boy, time stops. I would do anything to make her happy and hear her laughter...

Over dinner, the scintillating conversation turned to varying topics, such as class affairs and who's-in-love-with-who, (Yes K.H., she knows!) and how the staff outnumbered the customers at the cafe. Some well-sculpted compliments (You're fat, ate too much pie), and the evening was complete...

I want to tell her how i feel but i don't dare, i don't know if it's the right time or premature eja--- TIMING! timing! Oft times while talking to her, i feel like just holding her hand, hugging her, brushing her hair... but i guess that's all TMI (Too Much Information, see! i'm just full of useless netcronyms) for you guys... hehe so i'll skip off the details and end off here.

Listening to:
Switchfoot & Jars of Clay - Let That Be Enough
CellDweller - Switchback (The kickass industrial track used on the Catwoman trailer)

Friday, July 30, 2004

Adrift~
Thursday 29/07
End of the month, life's getting stuck in a rut again. Just had my MIA presentation today, prepared nice anecdotes and little things to talk about last week, but then class was cancelled, so did my presentation today, when i forgot everything.

Still and all, i think i did okay, didn't get the thing i feared most, an indifferent audience. Oh well, after that Terence, Jethro and I crashed UCCD lecture, got spotted by the lecturer, probably cos' we were playing Daidee, but she was nice enough to let us stay.

Didn't see 'her' today, so sad sad sad, then tomorrow she's going out with frens, so i sadder still. On the plus side! I'm seeing, or will be seeing, all my wonderful SPARC friends who i haven't seen for a long time!

They will all be looking for me to kick my ass because i haven't been going for NDP rehearsals and stuff, pass me warning letters, tell me how much of deep shit i'm in and all that... hahahaha!

It's just that, to me it's not important, priorities in life have shifted i guess;

i want to spend more time with the people i love, (okay except my family because with them i'm kinda saturated already, but i still love them!) like my buddies, old and proven friends, and of course, 'her'!

i want to study hard, prep for all my work and get good grades, work hard for once...

i want to be able to be myself!

i want my kali sticks!

but mostly i just want a sense of inner peace, something that's lacking right now... focus on life, not just going thru everyday without any growth or accomplishment.

Wednesday 28/07
Wednesday was the date for Connect 2004! While i was cybering with clarence he told me to mention it, so here it is.

Sat out most of it because i was at FC5 so i only attended the ass-portion of the event, but i wouldn't have it any other way... hahahaha! Anyway, watched Y.M.B (Your Mother's Band, sorry but they don't have a webbie) perform, with Clarence as botak headbanger-wannabe guitarist and Jethro as i-have-longer-hair-than-u jizzwailer... freakin' hilarious man...

But seriously they're not too bad, the lead guitarist, emmanuel i think, is good! Anyway, the important thing is, spotted a couple of chio girls in DMC, next time can keep an eye out for them. :P

Right that's about the furthest i can remember....so i shall stop blogging now...

Listening to:
Dexter Freebish - Tomorrow
Collective Soul - Smile

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Shitty day today... left for school on time for once, early summore....den both buses i have to take took damn long to come.....think they're taking even more buses off the route i use... >_< so ended up late for school.

Anyway, Kwok hao called me while i was at the bus stop to tell me that the toopid lecturer was having his period....and to hurry up. Best part is... later when the bus reached the stop after dover mrt, i pressed the bell, but the "Bus Stopping" light never come on....i thought the driver heard the bell sound liao and can see me at the door, so he'd still stop. But the asshole just drove on.

That's when i decided not to go to school, since i had a dental appointment in the afternoon but i left the card at home. Soooooo... i went home to get the card, managed to go for a swim too! Hahahaha nice! Hopefully i can get the doc to issue me an MC to cover for the morning class as well...

Funniest thing is when i was waiting for bus to go school it takes forever to come, but when i was going home both buses came instantly, like before-i-sit-down-at-the-stop-to-wait instantly.

On a last note; Connect 2004's tomorrow! Yay! can't wait can't wait!

Sunday, July 25, 2004

Alrighty, managed to upload and resize the pics taken at the zoo.... figured out a few more quirks about the camera too....really kickass the d70...


Barbary sheep! How it got there i have no idea, it's really pretty high up even tho the picture doesn't show it...


Some of the other peeps taking CDA gawking at the animals...


This bear has a really f**ked up expression on his face. He looks stoned on weed.


C'mon. don't tell me this get up doesn't seem reminiscient of an S&M site... leather straps, chains...


Muthafcuking big crocodile! Cam was on min zoom and he still so big! Took up like the whole glass panel....


Donkey!


Lion that looks like it's about to rape the lioness...


Monkey loving menage a trois.


Love this pic, dunno why. whole lotta red ass baboons!

Okay that's about it for the animals....


Extreme close up pic of terence, taken by F.F. Fa. (Shit man that sounds like a pro photographer name or something....)


Another ECU by F.F. Fa, this time of me! Actually was fiddling with the camera's settings and trying to take selective focus shots... i.e foreground clear but background fuzzy...


Shifa! the dood who took the portrait pics.

Alright i'm lazy to blog words. so chilllz!

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Wheee! Should have tonnes of pics in the next post. Cos' we going zoo! and then got a teen pageant thingy...

Monday, July 19, 2004

Was reading this compilation book my mother foisted on me today, with select stories from very good authors...

Read 'the vanished man' by jeffery deaver, about a killer who was trained in magic (the sleight of hand, illusionist, card tricks kind, not the cast fireball and manatap kind...)

Anyway, one part of it mentioned 'body reading', which reminded me of something i learnt about a long while back from god-knows-who. It is a very 'jian' method of getting a person to relax and feel comfortable around you, similiar to reading and mimicking body language, but more deceitful.

So firstly, you mention or talk about topics that let u steer the conversation to finding out personal details about the person, without actually asking.

We'll use the context of trying to pick up a girl, in this instance, because i'm a horny bugger, and so are most of the people who read my blog.

For example: "Break ups are usually hardest on the girl, because some guys can really be jerks."
 
Note: If u dunno how to read body language, facial expressions and gestures, don't bother reading the rest of this post. 
 
Soooo... if that statement has a visible effect on the girl, you should be able to estimate if she has had a bad break up or something too... That's when you...uh.. make up stuff about your own bad relationships.

The point is to preempt the person when talking about yourself, so that she'll go "Oh yeah, me too!" and find that you two have alot in common, or at least, appear to. Generally, people tend to feel more relaxed among people they can relate to.
 
Evil right? short-term also.... to be used only for one night stands or smth... cos' anot sure will find out 1...unless you're very careful what you lie about. :P

Friday, July 16, 2004

Escrima Escrima Escrima!


My latest kick (filipino stick fighting), something i learnt a little of, a long while back, from randy and ronnie. Samprada and all that...but i wan learn sinawali (two sticks)... hopefully there'll be a class at katong mall starting soon...

Had a fantastic day today! The best!

In the morning, went to california fitness with joel and got damn demoralized because the neh^neh must do everything with at least double the weights of what i do. >_< I henceforth resolve..........

to go to gym only with fat and unfit people in future.

Gym over, went home to grab my stuff before heading to school earlier than i had to, to meet fuckhead jethro, who was late for his class by ½ an hour and decided to skip it completely.

My only class for that day, MIA was boooooooooooooring. go thru two horribly dry research papers/articles and watching a news programme. Highlight of the class was telling Dennis repeatedly he was screwed cos' he din really prepare for his presentation, and HKL was in a *black mood.

*Speaking of black, the 03 asses (ref to 7th July post) are still at the childish stage of pinching each other, when a Sikh appears. Soooo... while watching the tape of the news programme, everytime one appeared, we'd all jerk up and alternately pinch,'chop' and block. -_-'

Only good thing that came out of that class was i learnt how to fold paper cranes and seagulls... Yay! Important life skill, origami.

After the turban wars ended, headed to Orchard to meet up with Ahmad, and 'tried' to help him quit smoking. I'm such a good friend! We were all meeting up, Ahmad, Ada, Shyuan and me, to go for this dance thing at victoria theatre, that Safuan recommended. THANKS SAF!!! _|_

Decided to have a late dinner after that, at some weird Rangooli 8 or something place, that serves up Naan and Pizza! Funny combination, but it's not the place, it's the company that matters!

I realised i didn't mention exactly why today was so wonderful, despite all my rhetoric... but if you know me even a little. You'd know why. :P

Cheers! and thanks for reading you bums! Get a life!

Monday, July 12, 2004

Anyway, i found a really really really cool old song, by Sinead O'Connor, dunno how many of you heard of her before.

-Nothing compares to you-

DAAAAAMN NICE! go download, or get from me, or shut up and go one corner.
Wahahahahaha!

-Reminder to myself: Buy the Sinead O'Connor CD-
God, i just did the dumbest thing in my whole life a little while ago. Too dumb to mention here because otherwise everyone will label me an idiot. Those that haven't yet, anyway.

Sunday, July 11, 2004

HASH(0x8bbad64)
Hummingbird Spirit Calls To You!
Hummingbird
represents optimism and sweetness.
Being able to roll with the punches is an attribute
of Hummingbird.

Hummingbirds's Wisdom Includes:

Ability to heal by using light as a laser from
mouth

Endurance over long journeys

Ability to fly into small places to heal

Joy

Happiness

Love

Messenger, stopper of time.



Animal Spirit Guides ~ Which One Calls To You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Wtf. *Hummer* .... heal by using light as laser from mouth... wahahahaha

Thursday, July 08, 2004

The 600 bucks is finally in! I got cash to spend again! Reason is cos' i paid out to my groupmates on monday already... then i was in the hole for a couple of hundred... almost about to go change foreign currencies for spending money... Yay!

Anyway, we had MIA(Media In Asia) tutorial today, and got screwed with two huge reading files... soooooo much reading and writing up to do. >_< sucks man.

Tomorrow we'll have CDA (Creative Digital Art), which promises to be a kickass class because we've got a laid-back brit teaching us. Fun elective and fun teacher! Woo hoo! (That is, if he doesn't tua us again)

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Ooyar. Wanted to separate the posts so my picture doesn't show up along with a piece of shit.

This is taken during the freshman orientation programme flag day, while we were waiting for jethro to...umm... do his thing. But in the end it was so fun, even after jethro came, we were still playing at it.

Okay, the four of us, jet, me, daniel n clarence were doing this stupid thing, outside the school of business' main office.

We were telling people who passed by, we got caught, and were being punished for not wearing our lanyards by the school director, Mr. V Maheathen*, which is a joke! because no one wears lanyards in poly, and it's a retarded punishment only seen in primary schools anyway.

*Name purposely mispelled so he doesn't find this site while searching for his own name.

Sooooo... results of this social experiment was...
a)most lecturers just take a look and either, walk away like it's none of their business, or go: siao eh!
b)some students are actually gullible enough to believe our lame story. *cough cough* wei jun *cough*
c)it really is damn funny

Later, when the director came...

We all smartened up and acted really sad. In the end he stopped by and asked us what the hell we were doing... haha then he was joking about it being therapeutic and a yoga exercise, rubbing your earlobes and the nerve meridien there. Bugger really has a sense of humour...
Olla! Three days since school started... been going to the gym, out and school... very tired. Just no energy to do anything else man...

Feeling... a little down now. As in i've been floating for a while now...so sooner or later must come back down to earth... and normality... :(

Anyway! We have AA for ICM! A major major module with a huuuge project, which means we'll really have to work damn hard... at staying awake.

Read Dennis' blog for more details on AA.

While i'm on the topic of school, let's talk about my least favourite lecturer. The fucker man. I still remember last time he came to sub for Ms. L³'s lesson once, and treated our class like shit. Insulted our parents and acted like he's the biggest dick around.
(Yes ms. kwa i realise this is permanently online, even if i delete it because of archives and cache files...)

Anyway, the point is, since he's teaching our class officially this semester, he is treating us better and not acting like an ingrown penis. Because. We fill in lecturer evaluation forms, and can finally bitch back about him. Bloody hypocrite. Act nice and enthu and all that, simply because if enough people fill in negative criticisms about him, his ass is on the line.

To get a better idea of how he's like here's a picture of him...

Sunday, July 04, 2004

Okay, finally got down to putting up the pictures from the Malaysia trip... resized them like hell so it'll be viable to upload.


My two youngest cousins. Petrina, the girl loves to smile and Paul, the guy always act blur 1...


Looking for a bear... on every page! in every book she has! Waaaaaaaah!


Mandatory family posed pic...


Told you she likes to smile...always willing to pose for camera...


Believe it.

Anyway, this is all taken during my gramma's b'dae dinner at some hotel restaurant... then a wedding dinner was going on at the same time too with a super tua kee bride and a super lao jiao groom... see also no appetite liao...


It's actually a great feeling to be one of the oldest peeps in my generation here... now i finally understand why EVERY UNCLE AND AUNTIE i have must keep telling me :"WAAAh you so tall now, i still remember when you were like that. *draws a line at waist level*"


My momma and Paul, both caught in a rare smile!


One of my nephews, Luke. The last time i saw him he was this tall! *draws a line at knee level*

Ahhh the cycle of life...
Reminescing about the past couple of days, i think i'm getting dumber... probably because i'm hanging out with the '03 guys alot since the freshman orientation.

Anyway, in relation to my previous post on getting screwed at MOS Burger... F&B personnel everywhere else hate me as well.

The other day i was at LJS with Shyuan...ordered a grilled fish platter... which comes with fries, and either coleslaw or salad. When prompted by the counter girl, i opted for coleslaw...but when the damn fish finally came... guess what?

I got BOTH salad and coleslaw, no fries... and being the new found dumbass i am... i didn't realise it, till i was halfway through my meal, munching veggies like a cow!

And yes, i realise everyone wants to know all the details of the 'first date'! Sooooo... to piss everyone off i shall just be very vague. we went for a meal then went home cos' no tix for movie.

Furthermore... i managed to lose my pass for the national day parade today... but that's so embarassingly dumb i shall spare u guys the details...

And there you have it! Ample evidence of my sheer bad luck and dumbness.... >_<
Just in! Don't check your friendster account or e-mail at a cybercafe, or at the very least remember to log out properly. Fuck man i forgot.

Some fucker went in to change all my details and posted up some gay bulletin. Bloody pissed man. Tomorrow i'm going back to the place to ask my friend who works there, whether she can check who was logged in anot.

Clear the cache files, and hopefully break the fucker's fingers.

Cheers!

Saturday, July 03, 2004

What a day(Again)

Whole lot of bullshit today man... whenever i go out with old school buddies we just crap all the time. In fact, today Ahmad had so much crap in him he spent the whole day feeling like shitting... from the time we met up to go gym to the time we went home...

Met up to go gym earlier then happy happy work out. Wah lau 3 personal trainers looking for business come up to us and try to psycho us... -_-' We were quietly doing our own stuff then suddenly this guy comes up to us and shows us around the machines and stuff......and damn i think he's gay.

After that we got hooked by another dude who coincidentally turns out to be interested in martial arts as well! Called his friend who's supposed to be a kickass fighter-siao! Hahaha power man..... so fast got martial arts kaki there liao... ended up chatting for almost an hour, about boxing, strength/power, and not beating up people because you can. LoL

Anyway, after that we went to watch Spidey 2, and then had smth to eat at Taka's MOS Burger.
Heck man. We ordered takeaway cos' no seats, then i also got the ichigo freeze or something strawberries, that i've been wanting to try since reading about it on xiaxue.blogspot.com. So eager to try that i rip open the package on the first one... and 'plop'! It flips out and drops on the floor. Paiseh sia...

When the food came the girl passed the bag to us and confirmed 'Fries, chilli dog and spicy MOS right?' We happily took the bag, walked all the way to Orchard MRT the dome there to eat, opened the bag, and found...

Fries, Teriyaki Chicken burger and fish burger! Like Ahmad says... moral of the story is.... check the fucking food before leaving the place.

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

What a day!

Day two of the SB freshman orientation 2004 as well as the supposed start of our CDA Flash Workshop. 'Supposed'. The dude in charge didn't 'manage' to contact anyone and so none of us knew it was cancelled, so everyone went down to school in the morning... almost wasted trip, except that the FOP was on as well, so we went for that.

Rotted in convention center for half a day, listening to all manners of speeches, then Flag Day's tomorrow, soooooo... we (the slack facs) will be going to Tanjong Pagar at 7am in the morning, send off the Freshmen, then hopefully, as planned, watch a movie and play LAN... even though we're supposed to follow and supervise the class. :P

After that, went to California Fitness with darling Fa Fa, cos' i thought it was a 'free trial', as in go in and work out for free....unfortunately, it turned out to be a guided tour.... so i got to go all over the place, see free weights, studios, stationary cycles, treadmills, and finally, into the changing room and see lots of naked guys instead. *cue lots of gay themed tagboard entries from Ahmad and Safuan*

Eventually, got brainwashed into joining... now i'm a proud member of CALIFORNIA FITNESS! *Who wan go... gym muz have kaki 1...*

However, while in there getting a tour on 'how to tone my gluteous-soemthing', or Ass, for the uninitated, my stupid handphone battery died on me....while i was halfway messaging 'her'! Waaaah sad sia... but even more irritating was, before that, when i was waiting for 'her' to reply, i kept getting messages, from other people.

Imagine sitting by the window, phone at your side, fervently expecting a special phonecall, then other idiots keep calling and say 'sollie, wrong number!' >_<

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Wowser! Backie from Malaysia... spent almost 5 days there, went up by coach. Actually i've uploaded some photos onto my computer aready butttttt......because it's taken by Dad's Nikon D70, each picture is on average a whopping 2.2MEGABYTES PER PICTURE! Which is nuts, but you can really zoom in like mad, until can see the individual hair fibers on your face!

K not that bad la but still clear like dunno what.

Still, it means i gotta resize everything before i can upload. soooo lazy. I'll blog another day, for now i'll just put up a pic of Shaw Shiuan and meee... taken in some weird neoprint shop in KL's Sunway Pyramid...


Me olde classmate, budden transfer out after one sem i think, doing mass comm in m'sia.

These newfangled machines.....endless array of personalization available... can scribble, put pictures of sadako, put all sorts of weird things on... problem is....it's all in Japanese! so by the time we figured out how to change stuff no time left. -_-'

~~·~~·~~·~~·~~·~~·~~·

Anyhoo. like i said, lazy to blog now cos' need to do the photos thing so another day then... took lots of cousins' pics cos' my dad has a baby fetish... (somewhere somehow, safuan is getting excited already)

P.S. later going freshman orientation thingy again, hope hope hope³ can find kuan shyuan... muahahahaha!! only reason i'm going man... *cue hoobastank's the reason*

Thursday, June 24, 2004

Bloody hell. Been playing Priston Tale till now... now how to sleep sia... wake up 8... if i fall asleep now i'll never wake up by then. -_-'

Dammit.
-Gone to Malaysia-
Back on Tuesday

Don't miss me too much! ^_^

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Just came back from the SB Freshman Orientation Camp, very short one which even tho had bad organisation and planning (though not due to lack of effort, just bad luck), was still pretty fun!

Didn't sleep for two days, but talked alot of rubbish and learnt a couple of new card games, made some new friends as well.

Then i heng heng got a nice group with chiobus inside, one of which is kuan shyuan, whom i would like to get to know better but suay suay i left the camp early for my dental appointment in the morning, overslept and missed everything, so didn't manage to get her number... oh well, hopefully i'll see her in school.

Had a drag queen dress up competition too! but i managed to wriggle out of getting dressed up by lying to my group that facilitators can't participate, in the end went around taking pictures with the contestants with my face on their b( . )( . )bs.

Heh, will try to post pics if i can get...

Also, i'll be going Malaysia for my gramma's birthday, hopefully can find cheap tattoo parlour there and meet up with shaw shuian and eat loads of good food! Yep, Malaysia kicks ass!

Friday, June 18, 2004

AwwiGht! my 100th post! actually not much but i just like the symbolism of the number there...

Against my own credo, and very unwillingly, Safuan forced me to watch Harry Potter and the prisoner of askajamulabongaballs, and it actually turns out to be a pretty good show! Now, i'm interested in reading all the HP books.... unlike Saf who watches for only one reason---





The depraved perverted paedophile.

She's only, what...15?? But a hot 15 year old.

Anyway, holidays are boring as hell, because i haven't really been going out, living a very monastic lifestyle. Eat 1 or 2 meals a day, meditate alot, sleep alot, go running and gym alot. Heh.

Good thing about this is i'm saving loads of cash, and theoratically getting fitter by the day. Only thing is i'm very inconsistent with my training, and that is due to another of Safuan's recommendations---


Click and go get it too!



Soooo... go to hell saf! bloody bad influence. Anyway, u or ahmad sees this. Punisher! and/or spiderman 2!

While i'm still on mat, you bloody chikunehneh! Can reply next time on MSN anot!

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And the last part of this post shall be a rant. on how some people only ever look for me if they need help or want something. -_-

it's... annoying. They don't call, or e-mail, or even IM me most of the time, which suits me fine actually... but whenever they do. i know for certain they want something, so i'll always have this little debate going on in my head on whether to pick up/reply them or just play dead.

Sadly, my selfish side is so selfish it refuses to speak up at all, so my helpful side wins all the time, and i end up doing all the shite work.

Nuts.

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Anger is trivial... just a little while ago my parents had one of their for-lack-of-a-better-word, spats. just slightly raised voices. Always, one or the other will give in, then it is as if nothing has happened, and they are as loving and accomodating as ever.

Will i ever find a soulmate like that too? i see my parents and view them with a trace of envy, as i have never had a relationship with anyone like that in my life. Irritated by their 'argument' then, i went out for a run, covered my usual route, which usually takes me ½ an hour jogging, in 15 minutes by running like a cow being chased by a butcher.

When i came back, everything was cool again. Heh. Family, the strongest ties a person can have, bonded by blood. despite everything, they will always be there for me, and vice versa.

Apart from that, i have learnt, anger, jealousy, whatever, is banal and self-destructive. i shall endeavour to make full use of the rest of my holidays by reading adv. theory, going gym, and cherishing the people around me.

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On another note, the martial arts community in sg must be smaller than i thought. Bumped into an old friend who wanted to introduce me to a fellow martial arts student, so we could meet up to spar or something.

Turned out to be my 'shi xiong (mandarin)' 'siheng (cantonese)' 'senior (english)'. Blardee hell. was looking so forward to meeting new people to spar with and then end up like that. -_-'

I NEED TO FIND A PROPER GYM! or failing that, get some dummy to hold thai pads for me. I can feel my limbs rotting away. They weren't kidding when they said your skills need to be practiced to be maintained...

Oh well, hilltop muay thai here i come (again)!

Saturday, June 05, 2004

Not to say that i haven't been in the mood to blog, but rather circumstances conspire to take me away from it. My last hefty blog was wiped out after i clicked publish post and it gave me a wonderful Error 404.

Apart from that minor hiccup, i been busy playing jedi knights of the old republic...chiong finish the game...hahahaha

Before that, had our DVPA presentation for the HPB-SP video competition on the 1st of June, with the grand prize of 600 dollah! SIX HUNDED DOLLAH! We won, partially due to luck, because our script had one story where the great Dwarf Queen Evon was pumping smoke into Big Balls Ben, causing him to die of passive smoking.

While i'm sure that he would gladly suck it all up because of it's 'lengthy' origins, that's besides the point. One of the judges could relate to it because he had a classmate who dieded the same way, part of our devious plan of generating empathy by using 5 different stories, a 'shotgun' approach, fire everywhere sure hit something...

While finally, as the crowning apex of the past week, i went down to Yio Chu Kang today to help out a friend's major student film, safuan. What i DIDN'T know, was that i was going to be a half-nekkid, gay, swordsman thespian...all at once. K i just realised how screwed up that sounds, so i shan't elaborate on that...

Listening to:
Tamyra Gray - Raindrops Will Fall
Revis - Caught In The Rain

Sunday, May 30, 2004

---
I know the last page so well,
I can't read the first.
So i just don't start,
It's getting worse.

I wanna know what it's like,
On the inside of love;
Standing at the gates,
I see the beauty above.
---


Ello, watched 'My Girl' yesterday, bought VCD, it's a really touching show... the camera angles and all that is stiff at times and doesn't really bring out the scenery or backdrop (think local productions like ... Raintree productions...more of a homely feel, very focused on individuals). But the idea is really very sweet and touching; childhood friendship, innocence...and first love.

The kind of love you never, ever forget, an effusion of emotions overwhelmingly pure and sweet in its youthful inexperience. When air smells fresher, water tastes sweeter, and life is simply more beautiful...

...or something like that.

Anyway, what happens in the show is really a good depiction of childhood reality, peer pressure, conformity, parents and the mind of a child... makes me wish i was a kid again, innocent and carefree, or in other words, young and dumb.

Synopsis:
Noi Nah, childhood friends and sweetheart with Jeab since birth, treats him very well and cares alot for him, to the extent of playing football with him to cheer him up, despite not knowing how to play and getting injured.

Jeab, on the other hand, grows up playing with girls and yearns to hang out with the guys instead. Being the pre-adolescent bunch they are, they make Jeab go through initiation rites to be part of the gang, culminating in wrecking the girls' main source of fun, a skipping rope made out of rubber bands.

Of course, this pisses off Noi Nah, and she confronts Jeab, who nonchalantly shoves her to the ground, chucking away their lifelong(literally) history of friendship and mutual care.

Regretting it immediately, he secretly tries to make amends, cos' after all, hey, a guy has his pride, but sadly, is too late as her family moves away from the little village they stay in.
Soooooo... moral of the story is: if you find someone you truly care about, don't worry about pride or anything, just do what feels right.

It's like i always say:"Matters of the heart, must be solved with the heart" Don't think! Feel.

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Soooooo moving on... in a nutshell, met up with wern ming, andrew, joy, jack and daphne, went gym, went swimming, went for dinner with my family, saw my super cute nieces, ton at andrew's place, watch shitload of movies, in the morning went harbourfront to li xiao kwok hao and discuss presentation, played lan at netspielz, came home and now hungry.

Pretty good summary of the past two days.

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Warning: Long read ahead

Referring to the snippet of song posted above, Nada Surf's inside of love... Love, arguably the most popularised emotion in the world, a central tenet of every movie made, every play performed, every book written, for good reason. Inimitable, constantly sought-after, absolutely pure, passionate love has always been said to be the greatest thing in the world.

Fairy tales always end in happy endings, with the words ~and they lived happily ever after~ Everyone knows this, and everyone is looking for their prince charming or princess. Love brings hope, companionship... completion to an otherwise unfulfilled life.

Thing is, how many failed marriages, divourced couples, break-ups, affairs, suicides, PPOs, injunctions and crimes of passion have there been, between people who -love- each other? People who once loved each other can easily turn it into hate, passion misplaced so often develops into rage.

But that's not my point, my point is; nowadays, people are educated and continually addressed with issues on love, from friends always asking you for updates on your love life, to your Aunties at family weddings prodding you;"So when your turn ah?"

People today, rush into relationships, grabbing for love, trying to get into a preconceived expectation and image of love. Lonely hearts see couples everywhere, and ache to be like them; finding other like-minded souls, they crash together like two pliant springs, softened and molded by society's stigma for being alone.

Brought together by velocity, the two springs get entangled, and briefly, cling even closer together, before their spring dynamics and structure rudely snaps them back to their original, individual springy shapes. This is like two people who just come together out of mutual needs and wants, in a flurry of uncontrollable passion, eventually coming apart, it might take weeks, months or years... but everything eventually unwinds.

-The candle that burns brightest burns fastest-
-Some fuckhead whose name i can't remember said this.

On the other hand, the same two springs, gently coming together, given time to feel and conform to the contours of the other, adapting, revolving around each other, both giving and taking more of themselves to the other, until eventually they are so intertwined they are inseparable and become one giant super-strength industrial-grade mega powerful spring.

That, is love.

-Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature, and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.-
- Bruce Lee

Friday, May 28, 2004

Feeling...sure i'm gonna ache all over tomorrow. Gym gym gym... no martial arts for the moment so just going gym now. >_<

Not going out much...which is good because then i save money, but i'm also dead bored at present. The presentation for our smoking ad is on monday, and the guys are meeting up supposedly on sunday to make our powerpoint and stuff....hope hope hope we win.

Big difference between top($600) and consolation prize($100)... well, at the very least it solves any division problems since my group has 6 members. ^_^ Now if only i can go seduce the board members...
Changed song again. Thanks Andrew for this one. Kinda represents how i'm feeling now... listen to the lyrics.

Check out Dashboard Confessional's Plain Morning too...nice song~

Thursday, May 27, 2004

Apparently blogger's lagging now. Anyway, ended up lifting off blogskin.com this really neat skin....simple blue. it's so....minimalist. sleek.

Going gym again tomorrow with Ahmad, speaking of which, California Fitness is cool man.... they have like...dunno how many floors of equipment and workout rooms for cardio classes and stuff, loads and loads of machines and free weights, complete with hugeass musclebound guys who benchpress a helluva lot.....then the bar(bell) itself is already quite heavy...shit man.

Then there are pretty hot chicks inside as well... *nosebleed*. Moving on, facilities are really damn good there. Only thing is it's too ex for me... 58 bucks a month...and that's like promotional price. >_<

Sunday, May 23, 2004

As promised, the banana phone... hope any statutes and copyrights have expired, since it's so old liao... Just go to "Files", right click and save as...

Anyone know any more retarded songs like this? i.e. arrogant worms - i am cow that kinda thing? Nyahahahahah

Was supposed to go over to andrew's place earlier to ton...but then i fell asleep. heheh now he's pissed of at me i think, then later go ray wilson gym with ahmad get a free one month trial membership.

K that's all. bums. Having a blog is no use for me man... because too many people i know read it i can't really write down how i really feel or anything, too... dangerous. SO what's the point!

Listening to:
Story Of The Year - Anthem Of Our Dying Day
Dunno who - Ai Rang Wo Men Ji Mo

Friday, May 21, 2004

Pretty fun day today, woke up early at 8am, for the sole purpose of sending a SMS to jie ting and adeline for helping out during the global conference, which is pretty... nice of them.

Cos' they have to go back extra by themselves, one morning and one afternoon, for the express purpose of escorting the guest speaker for the conference to the stage (as if he could get lost), but anyway guess it makes for 'decorum' and all that.

The shittiest thing is i have to do the exact same thing tomorrow.

Anyway, after that, i managed to crawl out of bed to go East Coast to meet some friends (Jack Steph Val Christian) for cycling/blading. Fun fun, if it wasn't so damn far away i'd go more often.

Finally in the evening, went to watch Shrek 2 with some other friends. It's a funny ass show man! If you got time and money go catch it... spoof all the fairy tales, then Puss'in'boots is voiced by Antonio Banderas, so if you watched desperado or once upon a time in mexico it's even funnier...

On a final note, i think for some reason the banana phone song, or rather the lyrics, is attracting alot of pageviews... i think i'll be taking it down, but i'll put up a link to download it... (because it's too late to get it off keyword searches)
I'll also be changing my blog layout... soon. Get down to creating a new skin.

Listening to:
Smile Empty Soul - Silhouettes
The Ripple Effect - Time Slips On By (super nice song must go hear)

Sunday, May 16, 2004

happy days are here again~

tomorrow- going to watch troy with safuan, whom i haven't met for years...literally. Yay, and also going to pass jaiyme her driving book and stuff....

Today- went to church unwillingly as usual, since i'm an agnostic but can't really bring myself to tell my parents and break their hearts or something knowing their kid has become a godless pagan sinner who'll rot in purgatory for eternity.

BUT! i saw someone whom i thought was an old friend in church today, meaning i'll go back to church next week! yay! Long long long time since i even heard from her... janice. Last time i saw her was like....4 years ago.

A soft-spoken, gorgeous girl with oriental features and is super fair, like one shade away from being an albino, very shy when i first knew her, but then, we were all young shy asses back then.

Crikey... i'm afraid of losing all my old friends. Got too little in the first place.

Yesterday- went to marina south or something for lunch with my family, cos' my bro book out from BMTC. Pretty disappointing fare but for me, well, food's food.

After that went over to jana's to collect some stuff, cos' she going Manchester, UK for a credit transfer programme. Ended up i went changi to send her, jovin and dawn off, along with some 19 other peeps, from DBF and DAC, saw jackass, val and co there as well, who were there to see psyduck dawn off.

So fun man, wish DMC has something like that... go overseas for five weeks to 'study'. Then next week some others going off to Tokyo, Japan for the MILE programme, like carol and wern ming i think. So so so so fun. It's saddening that because media n comm is a new course, we're not going to have such stuff because it's not so...established and stuff.

Thursday, May 13, 2004

According to blogger.com, this is my 90th post. whoa that's fast...

Anyway, a summary of today was, wake up, play with peggy, eat lunch, go watch zatoichi with andrew the ass who make me go borders to meet him when the movie is at cine, then go home.

Tomorrow doesn't look much likelier to be more happening, with a duty stint for the sparc cca booth during freshman enrolment... sianz...

I think i'm getting bored of my blog, don't really feel like putting in any effort or thought in it. It's becoming like... a calender?

Few days into holidays already and i'm becoming really really bored. At first i only had two objectives, work on getting my driving license, and training up by myself, so i can get into shape to enter .....All-styles or some other crappy tournament in Singapore at least, want to compete at least once before i get too old like... 22. Which is only ... 4 short years away.

Soooo now in between running, reading basic theory, and watching movies....i'm spending 3/4 of everyday........sleeping. i need to find something else to do man... everyone else has ITP so i'm like the only one that's free nowadays...

Listening to:
Massive Attack - Special Cases
Chemical Brothers - Setting Sun

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Feeling really pissed off right now. Mostly at myself and a little bit at a couple of other people.

Kinda lost my temper a little earlier like, cos' of a gradual anger build up over a few months or something. My poor dog which was trying to play with me got a little rough, i think cos' she pms or something, and i got a little rough back. she must be thinking what the hell is wrong with me today man, feel bad about that. Later go apologise to her...

The catalyst for the afore mentioned behavior was probably because of a couple of my fucked up classmates, who agreed to join the freshman orientation programme together as facilitators. Then eventually one by one tua me for the first fac meeting tomorrow, with excuses ranging from a legitimate interview to no fucking reason. at all. Fucking hell, not even my idea to sign up in the first place.

Well. Fuck you. Fuck you if you're reading this. In all fairness, this is probably due to my still feeling pissed right now, which i suppose everyone does once in a while, and misdirecting my anger, but fuck you nonetheless.

Well now that's out of the way, watched Van Helsing today, cool show! The brides of Dracula are hot hot hot!! One was Josie Maran i think... and kate beckinsale was hot too!! I think i watch the movie mostly for the babes in it... the only flaw would probably be the slightly retarded storyline...

Cheers!

Monday, May 10, 2004

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Sunday, May 09, 2004

abit can't be bothered to blog now.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Urgent post!

Ladies and gentlemen, i present to you, the best song in the world.

Tell everyone you know.

In other news, one paper left, i've not studied at all the whole day, instead played DR3, and before that a shitload of battlefield 1942 with a whole bunch of DMC guys.

So in essence, i'm fucked for AM. but i don't care....i've got the banana phone~

Boop a doop a doop
Boop a doop a doop

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone
Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone

I’ve got this feeling
So appealing
For us to get together and sing, Sing!

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone
Ding dong ding dong ding dong ding Donana phone

It grows in bunches
I’ve got my hunches
It’s the best! Beats the rest!
Cellular modular interactic bobdular

Ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone
Ping ping pong ping pong ring pong ping Ponana phone

It’s no baloney
It ain’t phoney
My cellular banaular phone

Don’t need quarter, don’t need dimes
Don’t call a friend of mine,
Don’t need computer or T.V.
To have a real good time
I’ll call for pizza! I’ll call my cat
I’ll call the white house, have a chat!
I’ll place a call, around the world
Operator get me bei jing jing jing

*Instrumental* Yes, Play that thing, Whooooo hooooooo

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone
Boop boop a doopa doop
Ying yang ying yang ying yang ying Yonana phone
It’s a real life momma and papa phone
My brother and sister and a dogga phone
A grandpa phone and a grandma phone too, oh yeah
My cellular bananular phone
Banana phone, ring ring ring “It’s a phone with a peel”
Banana phone, ring ring ring “Now you can have your phone and eat it too”
Banana phone, ring ring ring “This song drives me… banana’s!”
Banana phone, ring ring ring

Boop a doopa doop, doop doop!

Listening to:
Banana phone!

Monday, May 03, 2004

Caught Beautiful Boxer with Marcus the other day, goot show. hahahahaha. movie bug now got exams. Show's about a country tranny who is talented in Muay Thai, then fights all over the place, in different provinces, ultimately at Bangkok's Lumpini stadium, which is like the premiere place for the best boxers to fight. All that to get money to take care of his family and get a sex change operation. Of course, this motivation is very newsworthy and soon he gets alot of media attention because he puts on make up to fight, and then kisses his opponents after each fight. Wahahaha so cool. Anyway, i think that's really brave, daring to be what he wants to be, despite social pressure to conform, furthermore he/she excels in Muay Thai. hahahahaha wonder which camp/gym she trained at.

Next, managed to finish a couple of novels the past two days, which is fcuked up because i stayed up to read finish. David Baldacci's Split Second and Jeffry Archer's Sons of Fortune, and totally neglected my MLE. Hahahaha, but the books are damn engrossing.

Now starting on MLE, sianz.

Listening to:
Maroon 5 - Shiver
Spineshank - Beginning of the End

Saturday, May 01, 2004


had M&PP paper earlier yesterday apparently, then shifa called me and asked me to go main library to watch Michael Moore's bowling for columbine, which is a documentary on americans' gun toting culture, pretty amazing and also damn funny in a way. The show was about how compared globally, americans shoot each other alot more than the rest of the world, then they were analysing for causes, the administration, the media, violent films, their history of cowboys and reds, annnnnnnd.... Marilyn Manson.

Whoa, had to admit before today i didn't really think much of him, supposedly satanic songs and all, but in the show when Michael Moore (the filmmaker) interviewed him he seemed surprisingly normal and mature by conventional standards, especially when he was asked what he would like to say to a couple of kids involved in a high school shooting. His answer was, to paraphrase, not to say a word at all, instead listen to what they have to say, which nobody gave them a chance to.
Now i respect marilyn manson... anyway, go watch the show if you haven't already. huge backlash from US citizens all over forums and shit i think... pro and anti gun peeps, arguing for their rights to keep guns, and stricter gun control laws.

Personally, while i can sorta understand the various viewpoints of gun proponents, protection in a high crime rate area, constitutional or state rights, 2nd amendment, and my favourite, between needs and wants, it's up to them what they want to own, i.e. house, cars, and by the same token, guns. Individual determines his own wants for self-actualization. you know what you want, go for it. only the strong survive.

On the flip side, IMHO, it's partially because the media perpetuates alot of violence and crime i guess, so people get desensitized, numbed to it, and take action to prevent the same thing from happening to them, enter guns under the pillow syndrome. in the show, stark contrast man. US media shows murders, robberies, assaults on the news daily, breaking regular programming sometimes, the canadian news? wahahahahaha. Breaking news: New speedbumps! LOL. but they don't lock their doors at night? that's where i want to retire or live one day...

Another reason would be the gov and it's policies. the current administration's tendency to 'help keep the peace' everywhere with the strong arm of military technological superiority and the presence of nuclear weapons. Now there's a good analogy, the nukes are agreed to be dangerous, disarmament a dream held by many. Think about this. guns and nukes. people and countries. everyone has 'em, but no one really wants to have to use them, but because your enemy may or may not have them, you gotta keep yours ready.

Now a central tenet of the show is the difficulty in exercising gun control, and a plea to disarm and get rid of your guns is going to be heeded by NOBODY. it's the same thing, while nuclear holocaust is something no one really wants, WMDs have to be maintained for retaliation purposes, it's a matter of self-defence thru the threat of massive, albeit mutual destruction. Don't shoot/nuke me or i shoot/nuke you back.

But i think sooner or later the US' highhanded ways of solving political issues, as a 'big brother' sort of thing is going to backfire, people adapt to their national culture, become like their country. If they are showing that they use violence and money to solve problems (think sanctioned assasinations and secret funding of foreign armies), then naturally their people will grow to think of that as the most effective way, and bowling for columbine reflects that.

(I put the US as US because then it won't show up on keyword searches, learnt from Ms. KWA! HAHAHAHAHHA, cos' i dowan ISD or something tagging me as communistic or a political dissident)

Anyhoo, they're probably going to end up as a militant state, owned by fiscal powers, such as financial institutions and big corporate conglomerates with hefty foreign assets, backing the gold standard all the way, what with dollar devaluation. GOLD is...tangible, it inspires trust, it lasts, not to mention how little of it there seems to be.

They'll probably have the military as enforcers, because an army needs moolah to work. who's to say that isn't already starting to happen? i mean the gov needs dough too right (esp. since the avg. S2S missle costs over 500k a pop)? all the big bucks come in thru corporate funding, not for nothing is sponsorship (M&PP wahahahah), so what are they getting for their muhnee?

tax concessions? legal benefits for big companies? favourable new bills passed? it's an investment! the gov can really help you grow as a company, building permits, land purchases, stuff. $$ helps. it's like they say, you gotta spend it to make it.

k i think i'll stop about this here. don't want to get taken as a radical or left-winger. Comments pls post on the tagboard or e-mail me!!! but i hate talkin abt serious stuff usually, dunno y write so much crap today. DISCLAIMER: everything here is my own opinion, possibly derived from different sources, but do not reflect a political representation in anyway so don't buttfcuk me abt anything aye?
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Moving on, Shifa and I then trooped our way down to orchard to meet the '03 fcukers, Jethro, Clarence and Daniel. Played LAN for about half an hour when there was a blackout, followed by a walkout, which is like abit mean cos' the poor auntie there very pek chek and looked very flustered trying to appease a whole bunch of caucasian kids.

Laters, jethro succinctly put it this way, she so stressed, better not to disturb her, let her concentrate. What the fcuk man. hahahahaha. anyway, let me tell you a little more about jethro, who's a bloody lameass cockhead joker, a typical conversation that went on earlier during dinner:

Shifa: Eh, 快点去叫leh.

Jethro: leh.

Shifa & I: *Momentarily stunned* *Then start laughing as we get it*

Me: Okay lah, 你们先去叫lah.

Jethro: lah.

Can really smack his face man. furthermore, earlier on when we were at the cybercafe, getting our coms, we were discussing what to order from the snack bar.

Cybercafe lady: *after telling us our com numbers and stuff, overhearing us* 你们想叫什么?

Fcukhead Jethro: ÎÒ叫Jethro, ÕâÊÇChris, ÄÇÊÇShifa.
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The three of us, shifa, jethro and i finally made our way to dhoby ghaut to meet up with my class guys, who had been playing LAN right after the paper, which means 5 freakin' hours!! that's nuts man, the last time i played anywhere near that length of time, i was in sec 3. Crazy.

When we got there, the guys were already in the process of leaving in drips and draps (is there such a term?) so three of us just chiong battlefield 1942 like mad for a few maps, shifa being the WWII nut he is, enjoyed it so much he didn't want to try desert combat...

After playing a couple of hours, we went to paradiz center for dinner and a little arcade cos' there is buy 1 credit get 1 free. so not a bad deal. Talked cock with the two of them for quite a while before heading home.

On the bus bumped into hazlinda also on the way home...hahahaha coincidence, think she has a damn cute voice. Bought a big gulp from the new 7-11 near my house, FINALLY there's a 7-11 here that i can walk to, went home and slept.
Woke up about 4 plus and you now see the results of my hunger-induced insomnia.

WHOA THAT'S A FCUKING LONG ENTRY! think it's cos' i feel relaxed now, got breather before the next paper, law crap. anyone wanna study out? and hopefully watch movie as well, i wanna watch;
beautiful boxer(my idol! {the muay thai champion part, not the tranny part}),
zatoichi (blind swordsman, which is cool)
50 first dates (need to stock up on adam sandler...)

k that's it. what a fcuking long entry. imagine how much i could have studied instead...

Listening to:
Disturbed - The Game
Norah Jones - Humble Me
Moren Tea Estate - At The Edge
Staind - Outside
Catatonia - Road Rage
Starsailor - Silence Is Easy

Friday, April 30, 2004

it's five fucking am now, and i've decided things about mpp i don't think i'll say on my blog, since it's a public thing and ANYONE can read it... hahahaha

sianz. decided not to sleep at about 2 cos' i thought i'd sure have problems waking up, kinda regretting that decision now but too late. flipped through notes abit but most of the night was spent playing games... hahaha kinda losing what little focus i have for school stuff.

hungry now... bye

Thursday, April 29, 2004

Chris

is a Giant Squid that will turn back into a Human in the morning, is Covered with a Thick Slime and Blind, carries a Flamethrower, and has an Extra Head.

Strength: 6 Agility: 1 Intelligence: 11



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