my days are just getting more and more interesting.... i went to the doctors today for what i thought was a stomach infection, i.e. worms and all that...but happened to be something else...

so the doc tells me to turn around and lie on my side and take off my pants... while putting on gloves and rubbing ky jelly on his index finger...'relax, this won't hurt' and rams his nose picking finger right up my arse!!! 'relax, your rectum muscles is contracting' how the fcuk can i relax with a wriggling digit up my sensitive prostate man!!!!!

ok.... so then he gives me gastric medicine and another course of treatment for after that.... reminds me to eat mroe regularly and that....turns out it's probably a return of my good ol' stomach ulcer but now in the duodenum... which is bloody scary!!! cos' if the medicine doesn't take and my duodenum is perforated n bleeds and stuff ( the veinous thick kind not the thin type that u get from a finger cut), they'll have to take another gastroscopy (sticking a tube down ur throat to see what's in your stomach wif a lil camera) EXCEPT...since it's the duodenum n nearer the intestines, they'll go thru the ARSE!

wish me luck.

on another note, i think i'm blogging alot more now.

today was a long and pretty sad day. sa-turd-ay.

started off well... sparc AGM at 9 which i had to wake up early for successfully for once... went okay i think but missed out the handing over ceremony part cos' had to go help get refreshments. niahia... end up i have to carry one bloody big container of ice water which was like damn heavy... -cue lan jiao bin-

then went down to orchard for a while with jack jaiyme and jana to grab something to eat....ended up at MOS burger, then walked around abit to look for some present and we (jack and i) ended up modelling shirts to choose a birthday gift...... following which we went paragon the dim tai fung or something with the supposedly famous xiao long bao to try...
it's DAMN NICE! hur hur hur anyone want to treat me.... $8.50 for one basket of 10.....which reputedly has at least 18 folds in the skin......very very nice...=)~ . also ate the egg fried rice and some prawn dumpling which is xiao long bao + prawn... ALL DAMN NICE!

okay that was about it for the happy part of the day...

met up with ahmad and samuel later at paragon as well....sat at starbucks then zhi wei came along... i may be throwing their names ard like i know them damn well but actually i good fren with ahmad only... then drive drive drive to pick up benny. Following that, we went to an mrt station to link up with bryan and ken s. , old acs(barker) peeps, then went down for a fren's funeral wake.
met up with a helluva lot of people there that i haven't seen for a long time....like...since graduating from acs.

my fren sean passed away yesterday... i didn't really know him that well but he was a really caring dude... when i was kinda drunk n puking by the sidewalk he was the only guy who came up to me n made sure i was okay then... den i still remember a few hours after that when we were all eating a very late supper....at like 5-6 in the morning... he was the one puking like non-stop by the drain the whole time we were eating...

why do people commit suicide... isn't it like the easy way out? leaving behind all ur problems means someone else still has to clean up.....probably your loved ones... then it's like you'll never know what a person is really thinking or going through so something seemingly inconsequential to you could be really serious to someone else... forgetting to return a call, missing out subtle signs of distress.....

i guess i'm writing all this down just to say... cherish the people around you... show u care... i mean, u don't know when they'll, or u'll be gone.... so juz appreciate everyone and everything while you can... don't be afraid 2 express your love, be it bgr, brotherhood, family, whatever..... something small 2 u could mean the world to someone else... farewell sean... none of us will ever forget u...

-In memory of Sean Png Hao Jie-

following the seeming trend to post lyrics....i shall post it of this song....it's bloody old but i'm listening to it now for some reason....haa
7th Standard - Half closed eyes

Can you guess why it's so easy to see the world
Through half-closed eyes at times like these?
Enough dreams
Would it be so beautiful here

Your place, a Friday night
What a waste, you're selfish, nice
Get in the car and take me home
I'd rather be away alone
I leave the house to think things out
I make my own mistakes to use them up
I walk from yours and I give up

And we'll make this, but we'll fake it
Both alone and obscure
I wonder what it feels like
To get out of your way just like I should...

I see the sky, the moon, the stars...
And I want to be right where you're at
Someplace where everything is small
And nothing matters
And in between where it feels good
To fall asleep without any sheets
And feel the soft go beneath my feet

And we'll make this, but we'll fake it
Both alone and obscure
I wonder what it feels like
To get out of your way just like I should...

For the most part
Like a breakdown
Another shot of screaming, pure
Hollow inside, insecure
And feeling sight like everything matters...

I know I have something to say
I really don't know what to say

Can you guess why it's so easy to see the world
Through half-closed eyes at times like these?
Enough dreams
Would it be so beautiful here
(abbreviated) nyahaha

hokay today was....a learning day.

went to geylang to meet an old friend thinking we were just going to get something to eat and maybe chill for a while. bummed around with old friends, made new ones and also...

learnt alot abt singapore sex industry instead... hahahaha really eye opener man... shall not go into explicit details... but i didn't do anything. i swear!

ANYWAYs, filming commences tomorrow and i hope it turns out well man.....alot of shit going into this dvpa project. the things i do to get acting talent. sheesh.

Listening to:
Wang Xin Ling - Beauty and Dang Ni
-thanks kwok hao for lending me the CD-

aight sorry about being unable to see the pics earlier. for some reason they didn't show up and i couldn't see cos' at home my IE doesn't show the refreshed blog........

so on the advice of dennis i've switched to mypicgallery.com.

chillz!

listening to my old ancient songs now... plugging thru some tutorial....dunno for what also...would probably be easier to skip the damn class. haaa projects and stuff still coming up but i think i'll be okay. gotta find another dude who can smoke like a pro to act in my group's anti-smoking film. Eng Kiong was saying how ironic it is we'll probably be paying our actors in an anti-smoking film with cigarettes...

aight i'm off. chillz and thanks for reading, as always. bums.

Listening to:
The Calling - We're Forgiven
Blink 182 - What Went Wrong
Blessed Union Of Souls - Hey Leonardo

still can't read... worst still can't hear new song i uploaded. hope u guys can.

end of another week... booring. stuck in a rut except it's going faster and faster, cos' of friction i guess...or rather lack of it.
projects CAs and what not....hahaha

best part of the day was probably having supper with marcus again at the prata place....which i dunno why but he seems to enjoy going there so much... but i'm not complaining, since it's just outside my house.

damn that tubby ass looks fitter now man... army really can change your life, but he's still as retarded as ever, was telling me about the three...oh sorry, two escaped dudes in tekong which is why they had to stay in camp and run loads of rounds instead of going jungle trekking.... as well as the dudes from the much publicised Kilo platoon aka. super fat asses platoon, and how now they're like fighting fit and stuff......like i said... army really can change your life....

Anyways... before that, during school found out a little more about my lecturers, e.g. how law lecturer, pretty straight laced prim and proper ms. peters cheorographed and organised a strip show for the launch of the SB newsletter, from Ms. L³(Low Lay Leng), who's the head of our course.

Not to be outdone, ms. peters then told us about how biddy ol' ms. low was being 'picked up' by a really young guy who was actually a magician at this event they attended...

god i hope this never reaches their ears/eyes. **=i use the title ms. in front of their names cos' i respect them as teechers, unlike rajan. may the fleas of a thousand camels infest his asshole and may his arms grow too short too reach.

Okay this is getting to be a pretty long post but what the hell. i wanna x box!!!!!! i'll fail school and drop out for sure but i still want an x box!!!! anyone knows roughly how much and where to get modded one? pref. either like can toggle config/card for xbox live and um...economical version games.

what else did i wanna do.....oh yeah. pictures. like long overdue ones of the bintan trip i wanted to post but too lazy.
ahhh here they are... kudos to jack for the photos...


lazy me. just arrived and already going to sleep..

pic of the go-kart circuit which was pretty fun but cost 20 bucks a pop...still cheaper than sg. considering it's higher powered = higher risk = more injury prone.
plus, there was this notice that said all customers got automatic insurance, nice enough to list amounts too...
In case of:
Death : S$10,000
Permanent disability: S$10,000
Hospitalization: S$3,000
yep. reassuring.

the seafood restaurant...we paid about 80 bucks i think for a really great meal... black peppa crabs, snapper, mussels, squid...the works. :)~

ehh the path to the resort beachside at night...like a scene out of survivor...

ehehehehehe this was when all of us went for massage but i only posted my own pic cos' i'm a narcissistic arse. just kena sunburn then go...
pool bar!!!
in case you didn't think so... it's a pool bar.
ehh... i dunno what to write for this one...

aight this is when going home liao...go there sleep come back sleep also...

okay that's all i can be bothered to upload. i'd post video clips but i think my blog would get taken down cos' of unacceptable content.

cya! and as always... thanks for reading, you bums. go study or something.

ok this is really faggy. till now i still can't see my posts on my com. ah well.

went for a run earlier, got renewed motivation to go into training...hur hur hur. projects like mad this week and the next i think....filming schedule, dunno how many other projects and stuff...crap.....lucky is same group for like.....almost all of them so project meetings won't clash and stuff.

still no new music cos' dunno where to download. boring man...

finally, i think i'm getting bored of spellforce cos' i finally managed to finish the bloody game. with an anti-climatic ending. which comprises of a continuing circle of storyline. which is a very lame reason for you to replay the game. basically the bad guy goes back in time in a portal and grows old and becomes a good guy after years of pondering... so he tries to stop the bad guy(a young version of himself) but fails and is killed. meanwhile the bad guy goes on into the time portal and grows old and.......

nuts.

alright that's all for today. thanks for reading you bums.

hmm something wrong wif my blog or my IE. seems like my newest posts never show up on my com.

anyway today i went late for project meeting for DVPA, drawing cartoon/anime looking thingys for the storyboard cos' ms. kwa say no stick figures... haven't mounted it yet tho.....then a couple of us left dennis' place after that while a couple of guys stayed behind to... watch some of dennis' archives of other video productions...

went for lunch/dinner with runjian at mos burger and crapped a helluva lot...

now at home feeling a little sick, dont' feel like going school tomorrow... as usual. to end off, damn u eng kiong! i'm still addicted to spellforce...

okay referring to my previous post. am i liable to be sued for slander?

...

nah guess not.

Anyways, today i was doing the SB achiever's day and final assembly thingy... had to wake up early, wasted my time but the only good thing that happened was that my 'xian nu xia fan', who's this girl i had a crush on a long time ago was helping out too!

so managed to make a new, or is it old friend. ah heck.

slept thru most of the day. was supposed to meet marcus for supper or something but he never called me, just as well~

Lastly, Peggy's pregnant...can't wait till she gives birth.....all the super cute german shepherd puppies~~!

hokay. long time never blog liao... ehh lemme see... well on friday i had a pretty memorable media tutorial..here's how it goes...

i go into class late as usual, but class quite empty leh..which is pretty unusual cos' i'm always one of the last few ppl to get in... *shrugs* then later Alan tells me that Rajan is taking over the class today.

That explains alot. Like why there are so few people in class. They knew that fat bastard was subbing for that day... i forgot, otherwise i wouldn't go either. Dammit.

Anyway, he managed to piss us all off within half a minute i think... quotes from Mr. Rajan:
"I don't like to wait for people" "can only blame your parents for bad upbringing" (wtf) "nobody's better than me!"

okay that's about all i can remember.

in conclusion. fuck rajan.

okay just a quick note before sleeping.

tomorrow school starts again...dammit, spent my one week hol like so fast...... attended a three day first aid course... hahahahahahaha funny instructor, tell alot of funny stories. was with my darlingest shifa, ming xuan carol ning and hafiz on the course... took up like half my precious holiDAys...

then went bintan with jack jaiyme jana and andrew for a couple of days, stayed at mana mana beach resort, go beach tried out jetskiing, go-karting and the damn banana boat but didn't get to go parasailing....:(

got burnt and managed to burn almost all my money too... hahah brought back like 1 carton of indomee which is damn nice but i later found out sg got bring in......... -_-'

okay that's about it... will post pics when can, till then, damn u eng kiong for telling me to buy spellforce....now i'm addicted to it...... >_<