screwed up blog layout by pressing the wrong button recently. actually it was several wrong buttons but nvm.

will fix after exams.

Exam fever.

Totally not in the study mood. I've got schoolwork piling up on one hand and other, extraneous nonsense on the other, and i'll still go play games or watch movies or something. I'm going quite mad. stressed. i have 3 pimples now. it's disgusting. Lack of sleep and proper nutrition notwithstanding.

Yesterday! I just got home and had my notes open and readings up on my big big 22 inch screen, all ready to work work...... Had a conversation with my dad which went along the lines of yes i'm going to pull my gpa up, study hard, so i won't go out until end of exams. Then..... 10 minutes later, i went out.

There goes the whole night, and the next day too, cos' i was too wasted to do anything productive. I now sit in front of the computer, finally getting to work on my long overdue assignments, the glorious mess i am now.

Pooja.

the tag game!

"this is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game.. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog."

1) I can't sleep at night. This is a recent development, i was not like this before. No idea why, i just can't. So i sleep twice a week but go comatose both times and that lasts the whole week for me.

2) I have this knack of always messing up in relationships. Short-lived and/or sad endings. Truly the embodiment of the aphorism - easy come easy go and playing hard to get. On the other's side.

3) Narcissistic, but you probably already know that. Arrogant too. But at least i'm honest about it.

Starting to struggle a little here....I'm not a really weird person so i can't think of so many things.

4) Addicted to nicotine and caffeine? Movies too. I get cranky if i don't have either of the above at least once every day, 2 days and 3 days respectively.

5) I'm gay?

6) I think i suffer from delusional parasitis. Thanks to all my 'friends' who keep reminding me about bugs and stuff. Maybe that's why i can't sleep on beds anymore.

It's damn sad that i don't have enough people to tag cos' they've all been tagged already. Um.... ninabina, ladyboss yw, she-man, ewww, uhhhh... barack obama and jessica alba. There, 6.

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Okay. on to blog proper. I fucked up a 30% essay the other day. Really don't want to give sub-standard work anymore. So... i gotta cram, gear up for the 'xams in a fortnight. Tattoo's all healed up so i've started training again. Soon the roomie said we're shrinking. :(

Think i've bitten off more than i can chew. Want to do and learn so many things with no time and no inclination. Trippy dance shit, le parkour, skateboarding, martial arts. Damn. Political science, strategic and security studies, criminal sociology, the list goes on.

Sometimes i feel like i'm being pulled in all directions, too many commitments. Then i just shut down and ignore everyone for a while. Retreat to my little shell for a while and get lost in apathy about the world; before coming out to dip my toes in the cesspool again.