Now sitting in CDA class, skipped ICMT second week in a row cos' i overslept again. Damn, hope my attendence covers 75%. Been ploughing through projects and stuff as usual. Very cyclical life. This time each year for the past three years i've probably been blogging about the same crap, project deadlines.
Supposed to be doing the Flash game now but oh well. Too much inertia cos' the deadline's relatively far away compared to other stuff due. Shitty life, and not just cos' of school. Been running alot lately, bleed out all the negative emotions i been feeling, plus, it's healthy!
And...my internet is still down... got new modem but it didn't come with any drivers, sian ½.
Monday, September 27, 2004
Sunday
Went to jurong east library purportedly to do project, end up reading off abit of microfilms to get supporting articles for ICMT, then dinner... didn't do much and kinda wasted everyone's time today i think. Oh well, fun times with queers.
Met up with safuan to watch les fils du vent/the great challenge, the sequel to the kickass Yamakasi, the french movie with 7 jumping monkeys. Prime example of miscommunication. I told him i was at "Jurong library"... den he was rushing down and went to........ Boon Lay (Jurong Point). Guess i forgot to add an "East" to my description. Oh well, fun times with queers.
Anyway, we went in expecting an action show, with 'capoeira-esque' acrobatics and fighting.... but damn, the movie blew us away. The Great Challenge was so moving it actually made Saf cry! In all the years i've known him he's never cried, but after watching the movie...whoa man.
It was -h i la r i o u s-! Almost everyone on set, from the director to the gaffer must all be dead drunk for the duration of filming, except for the chereographer, who was fantastic. The film has absolutely no storyline, and horribly planned character development, and not much research either i think. It's super corny as well, totally retarded acting (at least it was consistent retardedness) and long panning shots of people walking from point A to B. Totally no link. After the movie we were laughing so damn hard Saf started crying. But the acrobatics was marvelous! Le Parkour!
Best part of the show is its multi-racial theme. There are
Mixed blood Eurasians and
French-speaking black,chinese and french guys, caught in between
Chinese triads and
Japanese Yakuza
in Bangkok, Thailand.
Think that through. Hahahahahahaha!!!!
Listening to:
Third Eye Blind - Wake For Young Souls
Finger Eleven - One Thing
John Mayer - Love Soon
Went to jurong east library purportedly to do project, end up reading off abit of microfilms to get supporting articles for ICMT, then dinner... didn't do much and kinda wasted everyone's time today i think. Oh well, fun times with queers.
Met up with safuan to watch les fils du vent/the great challenge, the sequel to the kickass Yamakasi, the french movie with 7 jumping monkeys. Prime example of miscommunication. I told him i was at "Jurong library"... den he was rushing down and went to........ Boon Lay (Jurong Point). Guess i forgot to add an "East" to my description. Oh well, fun times with queers.
Anyway, we went in expecting an action show, with 'capoeira-esque' acrobatics and fighting.... but damn, the movie blew us away. The Great Challenge was so moving it actually made Saf cry! In all the years i've known him he's never cried, but after watching the movie...whoa man.
It was -h i la r i o u s-! Almost everyone on set, from the director to the gaffer must all be dead drunk for the duration of filming, except for the chereographer, who was fantastic. The film has absolutely no storyline, and horribly planned character development, and not much research either i think. It's super corny as well, totally retarded acting (at least it was consistent retardedness) and long panning shots of people walking from point A to B. Totally no link. After the movie we were laughing so damn hard Saf started crying. But the acrobatics was marvelous! Le Parkour!
Best part of the show is its multi-racial theme. There are
Mixed blood Eurasians and
French-speaking black,chinese and french guys, caught in between
Chinese triads and
Japanese Yakuza
in Bangkok, Thailand.
Think that through. Hahahahahahaha!!!!
Listening to:
Third Eye Blind - Wake For Young Souls
Finger Eleven - One Thing
John Mayer - Love Soon
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Oh wicked, it's been a week since i posted... been wasting my life away. Kinda losing interest in school stuff so everytime in project discussions or what not i can't wait to get away.
Been going out like everyday as well, just hanging out and chilling with friends. Madness. Anyway, my life is one of contradictions, my upbringing against my training, conflicted heart against rational brain, questions against certainties, emotions switching like a clock's pendulum.
What is it like to just let go? Before you learn anything, you just anyhow bom and let fly with everything you've got (talking in martial arts context), but once you start training, you learn limits, holding back, control, and to wear a mask. And never, -never-, get into a fight unless your life depends on it.
Sometimes i just wish i could cut loose and go all out, not worry an iota about anything for once. Just, be free. (general context now...) Waxing philosophy now: however, to be free also means free of emotions ma. So basically being totally free would mean to be devoid of emotions as well.
Dunno la, alot of pent up feelings, and i'm sick of always holding back. Oh well, so what can i do? Just make clouds. Heh.
Trying not to let someone affect me so much but failing miserably. Dying inside of more than one cause. I want to cry and laugh at the same time. Really extremes of emotions man...
Hahahaa oh yar i just remembered, today when i went out with CX, Fa Fa and fuckhead jethro for dinner and talk cock session, i almost got banged down, k not really, just knocked down maybe, by a car earlier. Then i was grinning at the woman in the passenger seat who was staring back at me with this absolutely horrified expression. I was smiling and wondering why i was smiling whenever this kind of thing happens. Think i don't treasure life enough.
Listening to:
Jessica Riddle - Even Angels Fall
Jack Johnson - Bubbletoes
Vanessa Carlton - White Houses
Been going out like everyday as well, just hanging out and chilling with friends. Madness. Anyway, my life is one of contradictions, my upbringing against my training, conflicted heart against rational brain, questions against certainties, emotions switching like a clock's pendulum.
What is it like to just let go? Before you learn anything, you just anyhow bom and let fly with everything you've got (talking in martial arts context), but once you start training, you learn limits, holding back, control, and to wear a mask. And never, -never-, get into a fight unless your life depends on it.
Sometimes i just wish i could cut loose and go all out, not worry an iota about anything for once. Just, be free. (general context now...) Waxing philosophy now: however, to be free also means free of emotions ma. So basically being totally free would mean to be devoid of emotions as well.
Dunno la, alot of pent up feelings, and i'm sick of always holding back. Oh well, so what can i do? Just make clouds. Heh.
Trying not to let someone affect me so much but failing miserably. Dying inside of more than one cause. I want to cry and laugh at the same time. Really extremes of emotions man...
Hahahaa oh yar i just remembered, today when i went out with CX, Fa Fa and fuckhead jethro for dinner and talk cock session, i almost got banged down, k not really, just knocked down maybe, by a car earlier. Then i was grinning at the woman in the passenger seat who was staring back at me with this absolutely horrified expression. I was smiling and wondering why i was smiling whenever this kind of thing happens. Think i don't treasure life enough.
Listening to:
Jessica Riddle - Even Angels Fall
Jack Johnson - Bubbletoes
Vanessa Carlton - White Houses
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Went beach today with ahmad and met assorted friends (chaota mango and lesbian partner, brian and many many who else) there... anyway, had fun running, bioing girls and swimming over to the small isle at siloso and sparring over there, now i have a bruised forearm and a cranky knee but still fun and games. Only through this kind of constant beating up each other can improve....so....anyone else want to spar? =D
After that the whole day kinda went downhill... but not disappointed because of the 'expectations' thing. if you have none you can't be disappointed. Heh. Now there's a party going on at my home and i'm in my room blogging... oh well.
Listening to:
Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You
Liz Phair - Why Can't I
After that the whole day kinda went downhill... but not disappointed because of the 'expectations' thing. if you have none you can't be disappointed. Heh. Now there's a party going on at my home and i'm in my room blogging... oh well.
Listening to:
Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You
Liz Phair - Why Can't I
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Go watch.
Wednesday was a pretty fun day, or was supposed 2 be... school for only one hour, den i was hanging around school hoping to see 'her', if only to say hi, didn't manage to, so off i went to the gym.
Damn, the martial arts community in Singapore is like really³ small. Fell into conversation with one of the personal trainers and realised we had a mutual friend, who i was training together with last time, one thing led to another, and we ended up trading tips and kicking pads for a while...
Being the humble person i am, of course i withheld my true power and didn't blow him away with my mighty jin gang tui(k la i nvr train damn long so i suck alot more now) , but DAMN, that made me realise i am very gian to go back in training... lacking in stability, the kind you get from hitting targets and bags on a regular basis. oh well...
Anyhoo, met up with ahmad after that, who made me wait for him for two hours, but as he was sending his gf, ada home, how can i be pissed if it's for love? hahaha! Watched the bourne supremacy, which is a pretty kickass film but with jerky camerawork.
jason bourne is damn cool, can plan and execute everything calmly even with a bullet in his shoulder. I learnt new ways to stalk people and burn down a house with nothing but a gas line, toaster and magazine...
"They don't make mistakes, nothing they do is random, everything they do has an objective, has a target." *paraphrased cos' i can't rem* So cool!!! i wanna be a cia assassin, failing that, the mythical ISD guy who goes around tapping political dissidents on the shoulder and saying 'excuse me, i'm from isd' is fine...
sigh, topic 3 for today's post, is....i can't stop thinking about her, all the time, during the storywriting in lecture, at the gym,in the movies, on the bus home, especially now, when i have nothing to occupy my mind with...
Don't know how things are going because i haven't has a chance to tell her how i feel about her... indeed, i haven't gone out with her for a looooooooong time now. I can only cherish the few moments i see her in school to carry me through the days, and pray for a smile as i gaze on that cherubic visage...
Listening to:
switchfoot - on fire
utada hikaru - first love
dishwalla - counting blue cars
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Hahahahahahahahahaha ran across this hilarious clip on kontraband.com.
How to deal with pesky neigbour's dog... watched this clip i couldn't stop laughing, check it out!
Had poly forum seminar thingy today, pretty disappointed at the level of discussion... cos' the questions asked were... surprisingly narrowminded and yet still managed to be out of point! Considering the theme, youth coming up into next gen of leadership, the questions put forth ranged the whole gamut from:
why no license plates starting with SEX,
to why only got mungens, and few mats in the army,
to why don't gahmen do more to support local "Insert generic special interests here, be it arts, entrepreneurship, or oddly enough, polytechnic scholarships and grants."
to, my personal favourite: is singapore at risk from JI sleeper cells and invasions by mad generals from neigbouring countries.
Why,Why,Whine. If you notice a similarity in the questions, they are all passive forms of criticizing the government's policies, and nothing actually to do with what WE (the youth) can do or need to learn in preparation for ruling/ruining the country in future. K the last one's just too dumb for me to comment on. Some questions were good but.........
.......overall, it's still damn suckass lor. You get the feeling people ask questions to act seh only, and they don't really give two thirds of a purple dinosaur whether their query is answered or not, they just want to go up and talk and show that they are 'keenly aware of global current affairs and local issues'.
Furthermore the facilitators and VIPs were all going 'oh you are the cream of the crop', 'student leaders in your own right' and shit like that. Wah lan eh KP sia. If i think the ppl going for PF is dumb, and i'm part of that group....damn!!! I'm dumb.
Oh well, more importantly, got a couple of chio bu in my group! Yay! Actually, not so yay, don't care about that anymore.
Listening to:
Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You
Dashboard Confessional - Rapid Hope Loss
Yellowcard - Only One (thx lin!)
How to deal with pesky neigbour's dog... watched this clip i couldn't stop laughing, check it out!
Had poly forum seminar thingy today, pretty disappointed at the level of discussion... cos' the questions asked were... surprisingly narrowminded and yet still managed to be out of point! Considering the theme, youth coming up into next gen of leadership, the questions put forth ranged the whole gamut from:
why no license plates starting with SEX,
to why only got mungens, and few mats in the army,
to why don't gahmen do more to support local "Insert generic special interests here, be it arts, entrepreneurship, or oddly enough, polytechnic scholarships and grants."
to, my personal favourite: is singapore at risk from JI sleeper cells and invasions by mad generals from neigbouring countries.
Why,Why,Whine. If you notice a similarity in the questions, they are all passive forms of criticizing the government's policies, and nothing actually to do with what WE (the youth) can do or need to learn in preparation for ruling/ruining the country in future. K the last one's just too dumb for me to comment on. Some questions were good but.........
.......overall, it's still damn suckass lor. You get the feeling people ask questions to act seh only, and they don't really give two thirds of a purple dinosaur whether their query is answered or not, they just want to go up and talk and show that they are 'keenly aware of global current affairs and local issues'.
Furthermore the facilitators and VIPs were all going 'oh you are the cream of the crop', 'student leaders in your own right' and shit like that. Wah lan eh KP sia. If i think the ppl going for PF is dumb, and i'm part of that group....damn!!! I'm dumb.
Oh well, more importantly, got a couple of chio bu in my group! Yay! Actually, not so yay, don't care about that anymore.
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you;
You are my only one.
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do;
You are my only, my only one
Listening to:
Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You
Dashboard Confessional - Rapid Hope Loss
Yellowcard - Only One (thx lin!)
Friday, September 10, 2004
Today is friday! the stars will come out today finally! Anyway, m now in school early for project meeting with class fags, so blogging now.
This whole holidays kinda like is do project week, machiam need to keep coming back to school so no difference. Sooo many many CAs, MIA, ICMT, CIBM, WFW to hand up within this week... sian ½.
But at least means i will be busy doing stuff so won't be thinking about her all de time..
Wednesday i went to act gay after our project meeting, and watched 13 going on 30 with my latest gay partner RunJian, cute show budden make me sad also... Hahaha melancholic at least.
After the movie, went to meet carol for a drink and chatted about lots of stuff. Nice meeting up again cos' even tho she's a pretty close fren of mine we haven't talked or gone out for a long ass time. Incidentally here's something for you to do: If you know Carol, the next time you see her, just give her 10cents, and tell her it's for the 'In The Name Of Love' fund.
Thursday went out with jana for a drink and met her 'dennis-sim-lookalike', chatted alot about alot of stuff again, and it's really really nice meeting up with old friends i haven't seen in like... months. Heh, maybe cos' such a long passage of time that's why got lots of stuff to talk about...
andrew joined us at the dubliner irish pub a while later, and then we went for supper at the meridien, talk a helluva lot of cock. Heh, now i kinda miss the old days when every1 from sparc would hang out and all... oh well.
Listening to:
Radiohead - No Surprises
Copeland - Coffee
Tao Ze - Regular Friends
This whole holidays kinda like is do project week, machiam need to keep coming back to school so no difference. Sooo many many CAs, MIA, ICMT, CIBM, WFW to hand up within this week... sian ½.
But at least means i will be busy doing stuff so won't be thinking about her all de time..
Wednesday i went to act gay after our project meeting, and watched 13 going on 30 with my latest gay partner RunJian, cute show budden make me sad also... Hahaha melancholic at least.
After the movie, went to meet carol for a drink and chatted about lots of stuff. Nice meeting up again cos' even tho she's a pretty close fren of mine we haven't talked or gone out for a long ass time. Incidentally here's something for you to do: If you know Carol, the next time you see her, just give her 10cents, and tell her it's for the 'In The Name Of Love' fund.
Thursday went out with jana for a drink and met her 'dennis-sim-lookalike', chatted alot about alot of stuff again, and it's really really nice meeting up with old friends i haven't seen in like... months. Heh, maybe cos' such a long passage of time that's why got lots of stuff to talk about...
andrew joined us at the dubliner irish pub a while later, and then we went for supper at the meridien, talk a helluva lot of cock. Heh, now i kinda miss the old days when every1 from sparc would hang out and all... oh well.
Listening to:
Radiohead - No Surprises
Copeland - Coffee
Tao Ze - Regular Friends
Monday, September 06, 2004
feeling really saaaad now. realise i'm actually a pretty anti-social bastard, like i just delete messages, don't return calls or anything from most people unless i need something from them too... it's like i'm turning into the kind of superficial person i despise...
Henceforth i shall make the effort to just call up old friends to say hey how are you! and take the initiative to keep in contact with people...
Budden that's not the reason i'm sad now... it's because of her (what else right?)... think i'm hoping for too much to come out of nothing. Anyway, she just said something that may seem pretty trivial to people, but it just made me feel the worst about myself since... god knows when... With just one sentence she can do that, wipe out my self-confidence and any happy feelings i had. She's the first person who can affect me so...
Am now thinking about what Ning said to me before. Anyways~
I just got home from sending her back and was feeling all shitty inside when i got a call from Haz at 12.20am, saying she not enough cash maybe to pay for supper at the 24Hrs prata place outside my house, so being the nice bloke i am, volunteered to walk out to bail her out.
Told my dad it'd be only 15 minutes, ended up sitting down and chatting with a bunch of people (haz, eva, ben, jacq and ifte) i dunno till about 2.30, when we move to my condo's swimming pool and talk till 6 in the morning. >_< but in all fairness i probably wouldn't have been able to sleep today anyway.
Soooo...ifte, jacq's bf, came over to talk to me about how crappy i'm feeling, and gave me the whole 'it's not worth it and u shld enjoy ur life more' spiel... and flirting tips. hahahahaha! yes, basically what ning told me but in a more 'guy' version. So yes, i shall try to heck care!
Lastly, meeting ahmad later for breakfast, hopefully can cheer him up cos' he's having a shitty time too. and maybe meeting runjian and his brother for movie if timing fits.
Listening to sad sounding songs:
X Japan - Tears (Windstruck OST and shut the fuck up alan. hahaha)
Jay Chou - Zhi Zhan Zhi Zhang
Oleander - I Walk Alone
Henceforth i shall make the effort to just call up old friends to say hey how are you! and take the initiative to keep in contact with people...
Budden that's not the reason i'm sad now... it's because of her (what else right?)... think i'm hoping for too much to come out of nothing. Anyway, she just said something that may seem pretty trivial to people, but it just made me feel the worst about myself since... god knows when... With just one sentence she can do that, wipe out my self-confidence and any happy feelings i had. She's the first person who can affect me so...
Am now thinking about what Ning said to me before. Anyways~
I just got home from sending her back and was feeling all shitty inside when i got a call from Haz at 12.20am, saying she not enough cash maybe to pay for supper at the 24Hrs prata place outside my house, so being the nice bloke i am, volunteered to walk out to bail her out.
Told my dad it'd be only 15 minutes, ended up sitting down and chatting with a bunch of people (haz, eva, ben, jacq and ifte) i dunno till about 2.30, when we move to my condo's swimming pool and talk till 6 in the morning. >_< but in all fairness i probably wouldn't have been able to sleep today anyway.
Soooo...ifte, jacq's bf, came over to talk to me about how crappy i'm feeling, and gave me the whole 'it's not worth it and u shld enjoy ur life more' spiel... and flirting tips. hahahahaha! yes, basically what ning told me but in a more 'guy' version. So yes, i shall try to heck care!
Lastly, meeting ahmad later for breakfast, hopefully can cheer him up cos' he's having a shitty time too. and maybe meeting runjian and his brother for movie if timing fits.
Listening to sad sounding songs:
X Japan - Tears (Windstruck OST and shut the fuck up alan. hahaha)
Jay Chou - Zhi Zhan Zhi Zhang
Oleander - I Walk Alone
Saturday, September 04, 2004
Yo update!
Lessee... lots of new songs.... thanks to alan sending me jay chou's new album, people who send me songs and ereen's blog which has a really really really super cute song that just gets better each time i hear it...
Whole week never do any work....but everything worked out. Crapped out a pretty good MIA paper in 1 day, thanks to my dad who's so damn smart. He gave me plenty of insanely logical arguments and examples, maybe a little unrelated, but the principle is there.
Thursday - Had to rush because i was meeting 'her' fo a movie, Quill. My god, terence was right. He told me when he watched, at the end of the movie can hear all the tissue packets opening and the whole cinema crying... then really after the show got sia...hahahaha it was hilarious! So many people crying after the movie... den i felt quite bad for laughing afterwards but nvm...
... saw huishi and fren there (who also cried), who has since graduated and is now working at the Life shop or something at raffles selling furniture but the point is for some reason or other her voice and mannerism suddenly reminded me of a classmate of mine...
Michelle. *Thunderclap* *Shudder* (Hope she doesn't see this. >_<)
AAAAAnyways, i'm falling more and more in love with her every time i see her... (my dream girl, not michelle!). was going to put down more mushy stuff here, but i can't really express how i feel, into words so........ you geddit.
Friday was a rushed day... blew through ICMT tutorial, then proceeded to start, on my CDA presentation for the Flash game. Fastforward 4 hours and i have a "tiny, wimpish" (Actual quote of CDA lecturer) presentation board... Ended up going for class late and kena having to present first! Heng i was in the toilet so i went like... third instead...
All things considered, i think can pass la, didn't botch it that badly... was pretty flustered while presenting so didn't manage to say all the points i wanted to... happily tho, my bullshit was mistaken for 'cool, intelligent answers' (Actual quote again.)
To end off, i miss her, didn't get to see her today so i'm feeling a bit down... oh well there's always the music...
Listening to:
1st Ladi - Never be replaced (Heard it on Ereen's blog... gogogo! You'll probably leave your IE open just to hear the song on loop)
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
Jay Chou - Yuan You Hui
Lessee... lots of new songs.... thanks to alan sending me jay chou's new album, people who send me songs and ereen's blog which has a really really really super cute song that just gets better each time i hear it...
Whole week never do any work....but everything worked out. Crapped out a pretty good MIA paper in 1 day, thanks to my dad who's so damn smart. He gave me plenty of insanely logical arguments and examples, maybe a little unrelated, but the principle is there.
Thursday - Had to rush because i was meeting 'her' fo a movie, Quill. My god, terence was right. He told me when he watched, at the end of the movie can hear all the tissue packets opening and the whole cinema crying... then really after the show got sia...hahahaha it was hilarious! So many people crying after the movie... den i felt quite bad for laughing afterwards but nvm...
... saw huishi and fren there (who also cried), who has since graduated and is now working at the Life shop or something at raffles selling furniture but the point is for some reason or other her voice and mannerism suddenly reminded me of a classmate of mine...
Michelle. *Thunderclap* *Shudder* (Hope she doesn't see this. >_<)
AAAAAnyways, i'm falling more and more in love with her every time i see her... (my dream girl, not michelle!). was going to put down more mushy stuff here, but i can't really express how i feel, into words so........ you geddit.
Friday was a rushed day... blew through ICMT tutorial, then proceeded to start, on my CDA presentation for the Flash game. Fastforward 4 hours and i have a "tiny, wimpish" (Actual quote of CDA lecturer) presentation board... Ended up going for class late and kena having to present first! Heng i was in the toilet so i went like... third instead...
All things considered, i think can pass la, didn't botch it that badly... was pretty flustered while presenting so didn't manage to say all the points i wanted to... happily tho, my bullshit was mistaken for 'cool, intelligent answers' (Actual quote again.)
To end off, i miss her, didn't get to see her today so i'm feeling a bit down... oh well there's always the music...
Listening to:
1st Ladi - Never be replaced (Heard it on Ereen's blog... gogogo! You'll probably leave your IE open just to hear the song on loop)
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
Jay Chou - Yuan You Hui
Monday, August 30, 2004
Weekend over.... haven't done much work, tho i was supposed to...
Anyway, Daniels (one of the 03 asses), asked me to link up his survey on video game violence so it's on the right. Just click and help him do.....yay! my first advertisement! albeit non-paid...
Here's a clip to keep you guys entertained to make up for the lack of blogging... Fat Beach Kid taken from kontraband.com...
Anyway, Daniels (one of the 03 asses), asked me to link up his survey on video game violence so it's on the right. Just click and help him do.....yay! my first advertisement! albeit non-paid...
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Here's a clip to keep you guys entertained to make up for the lack of blogging... Fat Beach Kid taken from kontraband.com...
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Effervescent!
Happy happy happy post here~ Past couple of days have been wizard! Monday i finished class early, cos' out of the whole class, only 5 people went....so tutor got a bit pek chek also i think...
Coincidentally finished an hour earlier, so managed to accompany her to work, was meeting ahmad, so it all worked out. =D met up with ning as well for lunch/brunch/tea, ended up running all over the place for the rest of the day, but damn, time flies when you're having fun.
Today finished class early again, cos' we got our first project component back, kinda fucked up that one but it's quite small percentage so i'm consoling myself there. Anyway, met her for movie, the notebook, ended up having to sit in the front row and cricking our necks.
So so so love to spend time with her... with her, everything else takes a backseat. Just end up non-stop grinning like an idiot all the time... Ning commented on that too. -_-' just being with her gives me a glow, like life's worth something, and i can't help but love everyone and everything around me (sorry about today dennis! haha).
Alright, can't remember anything else about the past few days, except her, so i shall blog off now... been listening to a few new really good ulu songs, posted one of them up....soo... enjoy!
Listening to:
Danny Scherr - Maybe You're Gone
Binocular - Don't Say Goodbye, Say Goodnight (up on the blog)
Finger Eleven - One Thing
Happy happy happy post here~ Past couple of days have been wizard! Monday i finished class early, cos' out of the whole class, only 5 people went....so tutor got a bit pek chek also i think...
Coincidentally finished an hour earlier, so managed to accompany her to work, was meeting ahmad, so it all worked out. =D met up with ning as well for lunch/brunch/tea, ended up running all over the place for the rest of the day, but damn, time flies when you're having fun.
Today finished class early again, cos' we got our first project component back, kinda fucked up that one but it's quite small percentage so i'm consoling myself there. Anyway, met her for movie, the notebook, ended up having to sit in the front row and cricking our necks.
So so so love to spend time with her... with her, everything else takes a backseat. Just end up non-stop grinning like an idiot all the time... Ning commented on that too. -_-' just being with her gives me a glow, like life's worth something, and i can't help but love everyone and everything around me (sorry about today dennis! haha).
Alright, can't remember anything else about the past few days, except her, so i shall blog off now... been listening to a few new really good ulu songs, posted one of them up....soo... enjoy!
Listening to:
Danny Scherr - Maybe You're Gone
Binocular - Don't Say Goodbye, Say Goodnight (up on the blog)
Finger Eleven - One Thing
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Okay update! Slacking the whole week, so school work's piling up, that's usual. Went beach again on saturday, that's becoming a usual thing too... planning on going like every saturday from now on. Anyone interested in going sentosa on saturday just message me or something...
No pics cos' no one bothered to bring camera, no one out of the shitload of people who went... coupla classmates, adele and chao ta mango, 3 03 guys, ahmad and ada, and assorted friends of friends. whoa!
So, anyway just throw in this pic of the (hopefully) last ever SPARC duty i'll do, the SP graduation ceremony, taken with peishan, fellow sparkie and (not fellow) graduand with merit and lots of distinctions. Would put a better one up but unfortunately, i mucked up this one and she didn't send me any others...
Moving on... when i left the house this morning i saw this tour group of students come down the one and only bus that goes my area....apparently they're on a treasure hunt or expedition of some sort.
And my house that area (pasir panjang, haw par villa there) is so ulu it's actually used alot for this kinda races/hunts... like everytime i see big groups of ginna running around, they must be looking at me thinking: "ooh a native! people actually live here!" Goddammit.
K i lazy to blog anymore. so goodnight and go read someone else's blog!
Listening to:
Jason Wade - You Belong To Me
No pics cos' no one bothered to bring camera, no one out of the shitload of people who went... coupla classmates, adele and chao ta mango, 3 03 guys, ahmad and ada, and assorted friends of friends. whoa!
So, anyway just throw in this pic of the (hopefully) last ever SPARC duty i'll do, the SP graduation ceremony, taken with peishan, fellow sparkie and (not fellow) graduand with merit and lots of distinctions. Would put a better one up but unfortunately, i mucked up this one and she didn't send me any others...
Moving on... when i left the house this morning i saw this tour group of students come down the one and only bus that goes my area....apparently they're on a treasure hunt or expedition of some sort.
And my house that area (pasir panjang, haw par villa there) is so ulu it's actually used alot for this kinda races/hunts... like everytime i see big groups of ginna running around, they must be looking at me thinking: "ooh a native! people actually live here!" Goddammit.
K i lazy to blog anymore. so goodnight and go read someone else's blog!
Listening to:
Jason Wade - You Belong To Me
Friday, August 13, 2004
And shepherds we shall be,
for thee my Lord for thee,
power hath descended forth from thy hand,
that our feet may swiftly carry out thy command.
We shall flow a river forth to thee,
and teeming with souls shall it ever be.
In nomine patri, et filii, et spiritu sancti.
In nomine patri, et filii, et spiritu sancti.
Just watched Boondock Saints, a movie that i had never heard of before Dennis sent it to me, told me it's a great movie, and the fag hasn't even watched it yet.
Oh well, turned out to be a fantastic action-comedy movie! You should all go watch it, somehow. Got all my favourite elements, tattoo-sporting gun-toting irish-speaking vigilante brothers fucking over organised crime syndicates. Hahaha the irish accent is bloody cool, think Brad Pitt in Snatch but more coherent.
So anyway, a short synopsis of it would be two irish guys somehow, falling into the lot of being avenging angels (hence, saints) who fight fire with fire, killing off mobsters and stuff. They run into a brilliant gay FBI agent (played by the green goblin), who empathizes with them and decides to help, instead of arresting them.
The filming style is pretty unusual, the script banking heavily on flashback techniques, but the coolest part of the show is how they're sorta like christian hammers (think Hitman), so they make the sign of the cross before any action and chant this prayer before offing someone, plus, there's the Greco-Roman tradition of putting two pennies over the eyes of a corpse to send him off with money for the boatman, ala Troy.
Bah, just watch the show la, it's kickass!
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Kk, the blog portion of this post. Not much been happening, slacking in school this whole week, crap, everything's piling up.
Been having revelations about life recently, epiphanies popping all over, about love, friendship, life, whatever man... just feel more optimistic on one hand, but also feeling jaded, the cynicism that age brings... heh.
Oh yeah, more resolutions.... not to play LAN for at least another month, damn sian of it. not to waste time with people i don't give a shit about. and lastly...be honest! with everyone about everything!
Listening to:
Slick Shoes – Once Again
Dexter Freebish – Life Of Saturdays
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Hokay beach post~ like i said, the other day, saturday we went sentosa but luckily no 'michelle', saw a couple of hot chicks there but hey it's the beach man!
Went with joel, steph, clarence and wen qi, supposed 2 b more but kena tua. *Note how even tho we'd been there for a while clarence is still superwhite... his skin super resistant to tanning...
SAND PEOPLE! (sung to the tune of South Park's crab people episode 708)
Oh and i'm not that short! It just so happens the beach is sloping down...really!!
Laughing at my hair...
Still laughing at my hair.... funny meh?
Getting revenge... and i think this whole post is a bit gay because it's repeated pictures of the three of us, budden didn't take many photos anyway... thanks Joel for the pics!
Listening to:
Finch - Post Script
MovieLife - Walking On Glass
Went with joel, steph, clarence and wen qi, supposed 2 b more but kena tua. *Note how even tho we'd been there for a while clarence is still superwhite... his skin super resistant to tanning...
SAND PEOPLE! (sung to the tune of South Park's crab people episode 708)
Oh and i'm not that short! It just so happens the beach is sloping down...really!!
Laughing at my hair...
Still laughing at my hair.... funny meh?
Getting revenge... and i think this whole post is a bit gay because it's repeated pictures of the three of us, budden didn't take many photos anyway... thanks Joel for the pics!
Listening to:
Finch - Post Script
MovieLife - Walking On Glass
Monday, August 09, 2004
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
yay! actually, whatever man. Thankfully, i don't have to go ndp this year! Can avoid hours of doing shite i don't like, smiling at pricks i want to slap, and essentially wondering why i'm supposed to feel proud doing something suited best to bimbos, i.e. ushering.
Sunday was transcendent. Went out with 'her', didn't do much, but she's reason enough for the whole day to be so wonderful~ ^-^ happyhappyhappyhappy
Anyway, on saturday went beach, will blog on that when Joel sends me the pics *hint hint*
Listening to:
Justincase - Without You
Steve Tyrell - A Kiss To Build A Dream On
yay! actually, whatever man. Thankfully, i don't have to go ndp this year! Can avoid hours of doing shite i don't like, smiling at pricks i want to slap, and essentially wondering why i'm supposed to feel proud doing something suited best to bimbos, i.e. ushering.
Sunday was transcendent. Went out with 'her', didn't do much, but she's reason enough for the whole day to be so wonderful~ ^-^ happyhappyhappyhappy
Anyway, on saturday went beach, will blog on that when Joel sends me the pics *hint hint*
Listening to:
Justincase - Without You
Steve Tyrell - A Kiss To Build A Dream On
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Feeling ebullient!
Monday, the start of another school week, came for a couple of lectures and slept through most of it.... ahhh kinda miss the feeling of sleeping in a lecture... Thanks AA!
Kept bumping into the dac class we 'fac'ed for... o_O, guess that'll keep happening every monday because apparently they use the same lecture hall right before and after us. Oh well, it could be worse, i could keep bumping into... ms. kwa.
Had WFW test (one-on-one web analysis session) after that, plenty of time to prep and have lunch too.... lucky thing Dennis went just ahead of me...
RunJian: "I feel more confident seeing Dennis do the test first..."
Me: "Yes, i'm so glad i'm going right after him, because by comparison i'll seem good."
Hahahaha yes, it's wonderful having such a supportive classmate! See Dennis, you inspire us! Anyhow, after the test came the best part of the day, heck, best part of the week!
Went out with 'her'! Finally! After four whole days of not seeing her! Damn, i got so nervous and jittery while waiting for her. Met, chatted and off we went to watch Connie & Carla at PS.
Sometimes, she can act so disaffected and distant it's disheartening, but when she laughs and smiles, oh boy, time stops. I would do anything to make her happy and hear her laughter...
Over dinner, the scintillating conversation turned to varying topics, such as class affairs and who's-in-love-with-who, (Yes K.H., she knows!) and how the staff outnumbered the customers at the cafe. Some well-sculpted compliments (You're fat, ate too much pie), and the evening was complete...
I want to tell her how i feel but i don't dare, i don't know if it's the right time or premature eja--- TIMING! timing! Oft times while talking to her, i feel like just holding her hand, hugging her, brushing her hair... but i guess that's all TMI (Too Much Information, see! i'm just full of useless netcronyms) for you guys... hehe so i'll skip off the details and end off here.
Listening to:
Switchfoot & Jars of Clay - Let That Be Enough
CellDweller - Switchback (The kickass industrial track used on the Catwoman trailer)
Monday, the start of another school week, came for a couple of lectures and slept through most of it.... ahhh kinda miss the feeling of sleeping in a lecture... Thanks AA!
Kept bumping into the dac class we 'fac'ed for... o_O, guess that'll keep happening every monday because apparently they use the same lecture hall right before and after us. Oh well, it could be worse, i could keep bumping into... ms. kwa.
Had WFW test (one-on-one web analysis session) after that, plenty of time to prep and have lunch too.... lucky thing Dennis went just ahead of me...
RunJian: "I feel more confident seeing Dennis do the test first..."
Me: "Yes, i'm so glad i'm going right after him, because by comparison i'll seem good."
Hahahaha yes, it's wonderful having such a supportive classmate! See Dennis, you inspire us! Anyhow, after the test came the best part of the day, heck, best part of the week!
Went out with 'her'! Finally! After four whole days of not seeing her! Damn, i got so nervous and jittery while waiting for her. Met, chatted and off we went to watch Connie & Carla at PS.
Sometimes, she can act so disaffected and distant it's disheartening, but when she laughs and smiles, oh boy, time stops. I would do anything to make her happy and hear her laughter...
Over dinner, the scintillating conversation turned to varying topics, such as class affairs and who's-in-love-with-who, (Yes K.H., she knows!) and how the staff outnumbered the customers at the cafe. Some well-sculpted compliments (You're fat, ate too much pie), and the evening was complete...
I want to tell her how i feel but i don't dare, i don't know if it's the right time or premature eja--- TIMING! timing! Oft times while talking to her, i feel like just holding her hand, hugging her, brushing her hair... but i guess that's all TMI (Too Much Information, see! i'm just full of useless netcronyms) for you guys... hehe so i'll skip off the details and end off here.
Listening to:
Switchfoot & Jars of Clay - Let That Be Enough
CellDweller - Switchback (The kickass industrial track used on the Catwoman trailer)
Friday, July 30, 2004
Adrift~
Still and all, i think i did okay, didn't get the thing i feared most, an indifferent audience. Oh well, after that Terence, Jethro and I crashed UCCD lecture, got spotted by the lecturer, probably cos' we were playing Daidee, but she was nice enough to let us stay.
Didn't see 'her' today, so sad sad sad, then tomorrow she's going out with frens, so i sadder still. On the plus side! I'm seeing, or will be seeing, all my wonderful SPARC friends who i haven't seen for a long time!
They will all be looking for me to kick my ass because i haven't been going for NDP rehearsals and stuff, pass me warning letters, tell me how much of deep shit i'm in and all that... hahahaha!
It's just that, to me it's not important, priorities in life have shifted i guess;
i want to spend more time with the people i love, (okay except my family because with them i'm kinda saturated already, but i still love them!) like my buddies, old and proven friends, and of course, 'her'!
i want to study hard, prep for all my work and get good grades, work hard for once...
i want to be able to be myself!
i want my kali sticks!
but mostly i just want a sense of inner peace, something that's lacking right now... focus on life, not just going thru everyday without any growth or accomplishment.
Sat out most of it because i was at FC5 so i only attended the ass-portion of the event, but i wouldn't have it any other way... hahahaha! Anyway, watched Y.M.B (Your Mother's Band, sorry but they don't have a webbie) perform, with Clarence as botak headbanger-wannabe guitarist and Jethro as i-have-longer-hair-than-u jizzwailer... freakin' hilarious man...
But seriously they're not too bad, the lead guitarist, emmanuel i think, is good! Anyway, the important thing is, spotted a couple of chio girls in DMC, next time can keep an eye out for them. :P
Right that's about the furthest i can remember....so i shall stop blogging now...
Listening to:
Dexter Freebish - Tomorrow
Collective Soul - Smile
Thursday 29/07
End of the month, life's getting stuck in a rut again. Just had my MIA presentation today, prepared nice anecdotes and little things to talk about last week, but then class was cancelled, so did my presentation today, when i forgot everything.
Still and all, i think i did okay, didn't get the thing i feared most, an indifferent audience. Oh well, after that Terence, Jethro and I crashed UCCD lecture, got spotted by the lecturer, probably cos' we were playing Daidee, but she was nice enough to let us stay.
Didn't see 'her' today, so sad sad sad, then tomorrow she's going out with frens, so i sadder still. On the plus side! I'm seeing, or will be seeing, all my wonderful SPARC friends who i haven't seen for a long time!
They will all be looking for me to kick my ass because i haven't been going for NDP rehearsals and stuff, pass me warning letters, tell me how much of deep shit i'm in and all that... hahahaha!
It's just that, to me it's not important, priorities in life have shifted i guess;
i want to spend more time with the people i love, (okay except my family because with them i'm kinda saturated already, but i still love them!) like my buddies, old and proven friends, and of course, 'her'!
i want to study hard, prep for all my work and get good grades, work hard for once...
i want to be able to be myself!
i want my kali sticks!
but mostly i just want a sense of inner peace, something that's lacking right now... focus on life, not just going thru everyday without any growth or accomplishment.
Wednesday 28/07
Wednesday was the date for Connect 2004! While i was cybering with clarence he told me to mention it, so here it is.
Sat out most of it because i was at FC5 so i only attended the ass-portion of the event, but i wouldn't have it any other way... hahahaha! Anyway, watched Y.M.B (Your Mother's Band, sorry but they don't have a webbie) perform, with Clarence as botak headbanger-wannabe guitarist and Jethro as i-have-longer-hair-than-u jizzwailer... freakin' hilarious man...
But seriously they're not too bad, the lead guitarist, emmanuel i think, is good! Anyway, the important thing is, spotted a couple of chio girls in DMC, next time can keep an eye out for them. :P
Right that's about the furthest i can remember....so i shall stop blogging now...
Listening to:
Dexter Freebish - Tomorrow
Collective Soul - Smile
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Shitty day today... left for school on time for once, early summore....den both buses i have to take took damn long to come.....think they're taking even more buses off the route i use... >_< so ended up late for school.
Anyway, Kwok hao called me while i was at the bus stop to tell me that the toopid lecturer was having his period....and to hurry up. Best part is... later when the bus reached the stop after dover mrt, i pressed the bell, but the "Bus Stopping" light never come on....i thought the driver heard the bell sound liao and can see me at the door, so he'd still stop. But the asshole just drove on.
That's when i decided not to go to school, since i had a dental appointment in the afternoon but i left the card at home. Soooooo... i went home to get the card, managed to go for a swim too! Hahahaha nice! Hopefully i can get the doc to issue me an MC to cover for the morning class as well...
Funniest thing is when i was waiting for bus to go school it takes forever to come, but when i was going home both buses came instantly, like before-i-sit-down-at-the-stop-to-wait instantly.
On a last note; Connect 2004's tomorrow! Yay! can't wait can't wait!
Anyway, Kwok hao called me while i was at the bus stop to tell me that the toopid lecturer was having his period....and to hurry up. Best part is... later when the bus reached the stop after dover mrt, i pressed the bell, but the "Bus Stopping" light never come on....i thought the driver heard the bell sound liao and can see me at the door, so he'd still stop. But the asshole just drove on.
That's when i decided not to go to school, since i had a dental appointment in the afternoon but i left the card at home. Soooooo... i went home to get the card, managed to go for a swim too! Hahahaha nice! Hopefully i can get the doc to issue me an MC to cover for the morning class as well...
Funniest thing is when i was waiting for bus to go school it takes forever to come, but when i was going home both buses came instantly, like before-i-sit-down-at-the-stop-to-wait instantly.
On a last note; Connect 2004's tomorrow! Yay! can't wait can't wait!
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Alrighty, managed to upload and resize the pics taken at the zoo.... figured out a few more quirks about the camera too....really kickass the d70...
Barbary sheep! How it got there i have no idea, it's really pretty high up even tho the picture doesn't show it...
Some of the other peeps taking CDA gawking at the animals...
This bear has a really f**ked up expression on his face. He looks stoned on weed.
C'mon. don't tell me this get up doesn't seem reminiscient of an S&M site... leather straps, chains...
Muthafcuking big crocodile! Cam was on min zoom and he still so big! Took up like the whole glass panel....
Donkey!
Lion that looks like it's about to rape the lioness...
Monkey loving menage a trois.
Love this pic, dunno why. whole lotta red ass baboons!
Okay that's about it for the animals....
Extreme close up pic of terence, taken by F.F. Fa. (Shit man that sounds like a pro photographer name or something....)
Another ECU by F.F. Fa, this time of me! Actually was fiddling with the camera's settings and trying to take selective focus shots... i.e foreground clear but background fuzzy...
Shifa! the dood who took the portrait pics.
Alright i'm lazy to blog words. so chilllz!
Barbary sheep! How it got there i have no idea, it's really pretty high up even tho the picture doesn't show it...
Some of the other peeps taking CDA gawking at the animals...
This bear has a really f**ked up expression on his face. He looks stoned on weed.
C'mon. don't tell me this get up doesn't seem reminiscient of an S&M site... leather straps, chains...
Muthafcuking big crocodile! Cam was on min zoom and he still so big! Took up like the whole glass panel....
Donkey!
Lion that looks like it's about to rape the lioness...
Monkey loving menage a trois.
Love this pic, dunno why. whole lotta red ass baboons!
Okay that's about it for the animals....
Extreme close up pic of terence, taken by F.F. Fa. (Shit man that sounds like a pro photographer name or something....)
Another ECU by F.F. Fa, this time of me! Actually was fiddling with the camera's settings and trying to take selective focus shots... i.e foreground clear but background fuzzy...
Shifa! the dood who took the portrait pics.
Alright i'm lazy to blog words. so chilllz!