Okay, finally got down to putting up the pictures from the Malaysia trip... resized them like hell so it'll be viable to upload.


My two youngest cousins. Petrina, the girl loves to smile and Paul, the guy always act blur 1...


Looking for a bear... on every page! in every book she has! Waaaaaaaah!


Mandatory family posed pic...


Told you she likes to smile...always willing to pose for camera...


Believe it.

Anyway, this is all taken during my gramma's b'dae dinner at some hotel restaurant... then a wedding dinner was going on at the same time too with a super tua kee bride and a super lao jiao groom... see also no appetite liao...


It's actually a great feeling to be one of the oldest peeps in my generation here... now i finally understand why EVERY UNCLE AND AUNTIE i have must keep telling me :"WAAAh you so tall now, i still remember when you were like that. *draws a line at waist level*"


My momma and Paul, both caught in a rare smile!


One of my nephews, Luke. The last time i saw him he was this tall! *draws a line at knee level*

Ahhh the cycle of life...

Reminescing about the past couple of days, i think i'm getting dumber... probably because i'm hanging out with the '03 guys alot since the freshman orientation.

Anyway, in relation to my previous post on getting screwed at MOS Burger... F&B personnel everywhere else hate me as well.

The other day i was at LJS with Shyuan...ordered a grilled fish platter... which comes with fries, and either coleslaw or salad. When prompted by the counter girl, i opted for coleslaw...but when the damn fish finally came... guess what?

I got BOTH salad and coleslaw, no fries... and being the new found dumbass i am... i didn't realise it, till i was halfway through my meal, munching veggies like a cow!

And yes, i realise everyone wants to know all the details of the 'first date'! Sooooo... to piss everyone off i shall just be very vague. we went for a meal then went home cos' no tix for movie.

Furthermore... i managed to lose my pass for the national day parade today... but that's so embarassingly dumb i shall spare u guys the details...

And there you have it! Ample evidence of my sheer bad luck and dumbness.... >_<

Just in! Don't check your friendster account or e-mail at a cybercafe, or at the very least remember to log out properly. Fuck man i forgot.

Some fucker went in to change all my details and posted up some gay bulletin. Bloody pissed man. Tomorrow i'm going back to the place to ask my friend who works there, whether she can check who was logged in anot.

Clear the cache files, and hopefully break the fucker's fingers.

Cheers!

What a day(Again)

Whole lot of bullshit today man... whenever i go out with old school buddies we just crap all the time. In fact, today Ahmad had so much crap in him he spent the whole day feeling like shitting... from the time we met up to go gym to the time we went home...

Met up to go gym earlier then happy happy work out. Wah lau 3 personal trainers looking for business come up to us and try to psycho us... -_-' We were quietly doing our own stuff then suddenly this guy comes up to us and shows us around the machines and stuff......and damn i think he's gay.

After that we got hooked by another dude who coincidentally turns out to be interested in martial arts as well! Called his friend who's supposed to be a kickass fighter-siao! Hahaha power man..... so fast got martial arts kaki there liao... ended up chatting for almost an hour, about boxing, strength/power, and not beating up people because you can. LoL

Anyway, after that we went to watch Spidey 2, and then had smth to eat at Taka's MOS Burger.
Heck man. We ordered takeaway cos' no seats, then i also got the ichigo freeze or something strawberries, that i've been wanting to try since reading about it on xiaxue.blogspot.com. So eager to try that i rip open the package on the first one... and 'plop'! It flips out and drops on the floor. Paiseh sia...

When the food came the girl passed the bag to us and confirmed 'Fries, chilli dog and spicy MOS right?' We happily took the bag, walked all the way to Orchard MRT the dome there to eat, opened the bag, and found...

Fries, Teriyaki Chicken burger and fish burger! Like Ahmad says... moral of the story is.... check the fucking food before leaving the place.

What a day!

Day two of the SB freshman orientation 2004 as well as the supposed start of our CDA Flash Workshop. 'Supposed'. The dude in charge didn't 'manage' to contact anyone and so none of us knew it was cancelled, so everyone went down to school in the morning... almost wasted trip, except that the FOP was on as well, so we went for that.

Rotted in convention center for half a day, listening to all manners of speeches, then Flag Day's tomorrow, soooooo... we (the slack facs) will be going to Tanjong Pagar at 7am in the morning, send off the Freshmen, then hopefully, as planned, watch a movie and play LAN... even though we're supposed to follow and supervise the class. :P

After that, went to California Fitness with darling Fa Fa, cos' i thought it was a 'free trial', as in go in and work out for free....unfortunately, it turned out to be a guided tour.... so i got to go all over the place, see free weights, studios, stationary cycles, treadmills, and finally, into the changing room and see lots of naked guys instead. *cue lots of gay themed tagboard entries from Ahmad and Safuan*

Eventually, got brainwashed into joining... now i'm a proud member of CALIFORNIA FITNESS! *Who wan go... gym muz have kaki 1...*

However, while in there getting a tour on 'how to tone my gluteous-soemthing', or Ass, for the uninitated, my stupid handphone battery died on me....while i was halfway messaging 'her'! Waaaah sad sia... but even more irritating was, before that, when i was waiting for 'her' to reply, i kept getting messages, from other people.

Imagine sitting by the window, phone at your side, fervently expecting a special phonecall, then other idiots keep calling and say 'sollie, wrong number!' >_<

Wowser! Backie from Malaysia... spent almost 5 days there, went up by coach. Actually i've uploaded some photos onto my computer aready butttttt......because it's taken by Dad's Nikon D70, each picture is on average a whopping 2.2MEGABYTES PER PICTURE! Which is nuts, but you can really zoom in like mad, until can see the individual hair fibers on your face!

K not that bad la but still clear like dunno what.

Still, it means i gotta resize everything before i can upload. soooo lazy. I'll blog another day, for now i'll just put up a pic of Shaw Shiuan and meee... taken in some weird neoprint shop in KL's Sunway Pyramid...


Me olde classmate, budden transfer out after one sem i think, doing mass comm in m'sia.

These newfangled machines.....endless array of personalization available... can scribble, put pictures of sadako, put all sorts of weird things on... problem is....it's all in Japanese! so by the time we figured out how to change stuff no time left. -_-'

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Anyhoo. like i said, lazy to blog now cos' need to do the photos thing so another day then... took lots of cousins' pics cos' my dad has a baby fetish... (somewhere somehow, safuan is getting excited already)

P.S. later going freshman orientation thingy again, hope hope hope³ can find kuan shyuan... muahahahaha!! only reason i'm going man... *cue hoobastank's the reason*

Bloody hell. Been playing Priston Tale till now... now how to sleep sia... wake up 8... if i fall asleep now i'll never wake up by then. -_-'

Dammit.

-Gone to Malaysia-
Back on Tuesday

Don't miss me too much! ^_^

Just came back from the SB Freshman Orientation Camp, very short one which even tho had bad organisation and planning (though not due to lack of effort, just bad luck), was still pretty fun!

Didn't sleep for two days, but talked alot of rubbish and learnt a couple of new card games, made some new friends as well.

Then i heng heng got a nice group with chiobus inside, one of which is kuan shyuan, whom i would like to get to know better but suay suay i left the camp early for my dental appointment in the morning, overslept and missed everything, so didn't manage to get her number... oh well, hopefully i'll see her in school.

Had a drag queen dress up competition too! but i managed to wriggle out of getting dressed up by lying to my group that facilitators can't participate, in the end went around taking pictures with the contestants with my face on their b( . )( . )bs.

Heh, will try to post pics if i can get...

Also, i'll be going Malaysia for my gramma's birthday, hopefully can find cheap tattoo parlour there and meet up with shaw shuian and eat loads of good food! Yep, Malaysia kicks ass!

AwwiGht! my 100th post! actually not much but i just like the symbolism of the number there...

Against my own credo, and very unwillingly, Safuan forced me to watch Harry Potter and the prisoner of askajamulabongaballs, and it actually turns out to be a pretty good show! Now, i'm interested in reading all the HP books.... unlike Saf who watches for only one reason---

The depraved perverted paedophile.

She's only, what...15?? But a hot 15 year old.

Anyway, holidays are boring as hell, because i haven't really been going out, living a very monastic lifestyle. Eat 1 or 2 meals a day, meditate alot, sleep alot, go running and gym alot. Heh.

Good thing about this is i'm saving loads of cash, and theoratically getting fitter by the day. Only thing is i'm very inconsistent with my training, and that is due to another of Safuan's recommendations---

Click and go get it too!

Soooo... go to hell saf! bloody bad influence. Anyway, u or ahmad sees this. Punisher! and/or spiderman 2!

While i'm still on mat, you bloody chikunehneh! Can reply next time on MSN anot!

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And the last part of this post shall be a rant. on how some people only ever look for me if they need help or want something. -_-

it's... annoying. They don't call, or e-mail, or even IM me most of the time, which suits me fine actually... but whenever they do. i know for certain they want something, so i'll always have this little debate going on in my head on whether to pick up/reply them or just play dead.

Sadly, my selfish side is so selfish it refuses to speak up at all, so my helpful side wins all the time, and i end up doing all the shite work.

Nuts.

Anger is trivial... just a little while ago my parents had one of their for-lack-of-a-better-word, spats. just slightly raised voices. Always, one or the other will give in, then it is as if nothing has happened, and they are as loving and accomodating as ever.

Will i ever find a soulmate like that too? i see my parents and view them with a trace of envy, as i have never had a relationship with anyone like that in my life. Irritated by their 'argument' then, i went out for a run, covered my usual route, which usually takes me ½ an hour jogging, in 15 minutes by running like a cow being chased by a butcher.

When i came back, everything was cool again. Heh. Family, the strongest ties a person can have, bonded by blood. despite everything, they will always be there for me, and vice versa.

Apart from that, i have learnt, anger, jealousy, whatever, is banal and self-destructive. i shall endeavour to make full use of the rest of my holidays by reading adv. theory, going gym, and cherishing the people around me.

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On another note, the martial arts community in sg must be smaller than i thought. Bumped into an old friend who wanted to introduce me to a fellow martial arts student, so we could meet up to spar or something.

Turned out to be my 'shi xiong (mandarin)' 'siheng (cantonese)' 'senior (english)'. Blardee hell. was looking so forward to meeting new people to spar with and then end up like that. -_-'

I NEED TO FIND A PROPER GYM! or failing that, get some dummy to hold thai pads for me. I can feel my limbs rotting away. They weren't kidding when they said your skills need to be practiced to be maintained...

Oh well, hilltop muay thai here i come (again)!

Not to say that i haven't been in the mood to blog, but rather circumstances conspire to take me away from it. My last hefty blog was wiped out after i clicked publish post and it gave me a wonderful Error 404.

Apart from that minor hiccup, i been busy playing jedi knights of the old republic...chiong finish the game...hahahaha

Before that, had our DVPA presentation for the HPB-SP video competition on the 1st of June, with the grand prize of 600 dollah! SIX HUNDED DOLLAH! We won, partially due to luck, because our script had one story where the great Dwarf Queen Evon was pumping smoke into Big Balls Ben, causing him to die of passive smoking.

While i'm sure that he would gladly suck it all up because of it's 'lengthy' origins, that's besides the point. One of the judges could relate to it because he had a classmate who dieded the same way, part of our devious plan of generating empathy by using 5 different stories, a 'shotgun' approach, fire everywhere sure hit something...

While finally, as the crowning apex of the past week, i went down to Yio Chu Kang today to help out a friend's major student film, safuan. What i DIDN'T know, was that i was going to be a half-nekkid, gay, swordsman thespian...all at once. K i just realised how screwed up that sounds, so i shan't elaborate on that...

Listening to:
Tamyra Gray - Raindrops Will Fall
Revis - Caught In The Rain

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I know the last page so well,
I can't read the first.
So i just don't start,
It's getting worse.

I wanna know what it's like,
On the inside of love;
Standing at the gates,
I see the beauty above.
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Ello, watched 'My Girl' yesterday, bought VCD, it's a really touching show... the camera angles and all that is stiff at times and doesn't really bring out the scenery or backdrop (think local productions like ... Raintree productions...more of a homely feel, very focused on individuals). But the idea is really very sweet and touching; childhood friendship, innocence...and first love.

The kind of love you never, ever forget, an effusion of emotions overwhelmingly pure and sweet in its youthful inexperience. When air smells fresher, water tastes sweeter, and life is simply more beautiful...

...or something like that.

Anyway, what happens in the show is really a good depiction of childhood reality, peer pressure, conformity, parents and the mind of a child... makes me wish i was a kid again, innocent and carefree, or in other words, young and dumb.

Synopsis:
Noi Nah, childhood friends and sweetheart with Jeab since birth, treats him very well and cares alot for him, to the extent of playing football with him to cheer him up, despite not knowing how to play and getting injured.

Jeab, on the other hand, grows up playing with girls and yearns to hang out with the guys instead. Being the pre-adolescent bunch they are, they make Jeab go through initiation rites to be part of the gang, culminating in wrecking the girls' main source of fun, a skipping rope made out of rubber bands.

Of course, this pisses off Noi Nah, and she confronts Jeab, who nonchalantly shoves her to the ground, chucking away their lifelong(literally) history of friendship and mutual care.

Regretting it immediately, he secretly tries to make amends, cos' after all, hey, a guy has his pride, but sadly, is too late as her family moves away from the little village they stay in. Soooooo... moral of the story is: if you find someone you truly care about, don't worry about pride or anything, just do what feels right.

It's like i always say:"Matters of the heart, must be solved with the heart" Don't think! Feel.

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Soooooo moving on... in a nutshell, met up with wern ming, andrew, joy, jack and daphne, went gym, went swimming, went for dinner with my family, saw my super cute nieces, ton at andrew's place, watch shitload of movies, in the morning went harbourfront to li xiao kwok hao and discuss presentation, played lan at netspielz, came home and now hungry.

Pretty good summary of the past two days.

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Warning: Long read ahead

Referring to the snippet of song posted above, Nada Surf's inside of love... Love, arguably the most popularised emotion in the world, a central tenet of every movie made, every play performed, every book written, for good reason. Inimitable, constantly sought-after, absolutely pure, passionate love has always been said to be the greatest thing in the world.

Fairy tales always end in happy endings, with the words ~and they lived happily ever after~ Everyone knows this, and everyone is looking for their prince charming or princess. Love brings hope, companionship... completion to an otherwise unfulfilled life.

Thing is, how many failed marriages, divourced couples, break-ups, affairs, suicides, PPOs, injunctions and crimes of passion have there been, between people who -love- each other? People who once loved each other can easily turn it into hate, passion misplaced so often develops into rage.

But that's not my point, my point is; nowadays, people are educated and continually addressed with issues on love, from friends always asking you for updates on your love life, to your Aunties at family weddings prodding you;"So when your turn ah?"

People today, rush into relationships, grabbing for love, trying to get into a preconceived expectation and image of love. Lonely hearts see couples everywhere, and ache to be like them; finding other like-minded souls, they crash together like two pliant springs, softened and molded by society's stigma for being alone.

Brought together by velocity, the two springs get entangled, and briefly, cling even closer together, before their spring dynamics and structure rudely snaps them back to their original, individual springy shapes. This is like two people who just come together out of mutual needs and wants, in a flurry of uncontrollable passion, eventually coming apart, it might take weeks, months or years... but everything eventually unwinds.

-The candle that burns brightest burns fastest-
-Some fuckhead whose name i can't remember said this.

On the other hand, the same two springs, gently coming together, given time to feel and conform to the contours of the other, adapting, revolving around each other, both giving and taking more of themselves to the other, until eventually they are so intertwined they are inseparable and become one giant super-strength industrial-grade mega powerful spring.

That, is love.

-Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature, and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.-
- Bruce Lee

Feeling...sure i'm gonna ache all over tomorrow. Gym gym gym... no martial arts for the moment so just going gym now. >_<

Not going out much...which is good because then i save money, but i'm also dead bored at present. The presentation for our smoking ad is on monday, and the guys are meeting up supposedly on sunday to make our powerpoint and stuff....hope hope hope we win.

Big difference between top($600) and consolation prize($100)... well, at the very least it solves any division problems since my group has 6 members. ^_^ Now if only i can go seduce the board members...

Changed song again. Thanks Andrew for this one. Kinda represents how i'm feeling now... listen to the lyrics.

Check out Dashboard Confessional's Plain Morning too...nice song~

Apparently blogger's lagging now. Anyway, ended up lifting off blogskin.com this really neat skin....simple blue. it's so....minimalist. sleek.

Going gym again tomorrow with Ahmad, speaking of which, California Fitness is cool man.... they have like...dunno how many floors of equipment and workout rooms for cardio classes and stuff, loads and loads of machines and free weights, complete with hugeass musclebound guys who benchpress a helluva lot.....then the bar(bell) itself is already quite heavy...shit man.

Then there are pretty hot chicks inside as well... *nosebleed*. Moving on, facilities are really damn good there. Only thing is it's too ex for me... 58 bucks a month...and that's like promotional price. >_<

As promised, the banana phone... hope any statutes and copyrights have expired, since it's so old liao... Just go to "Files", right click and save as...

Anyone know any more retarded songs like this? i.e. arrogant worms - i am cow that kinda thing? Nyahahahahah

Was supposed to go over to andrew's place earlier to ton...but then i fell asleep. heheh now he's pissed of at me i think, then later go ray wilson gym with ahmad get a free one month trial membership.

K that's all. bums. Having a blog is no use for me man... because too many people i know read it i can't really write down how i really feel or anything, too... dangerous. SO what's the point!

Listening to:
Story Of The Year - Anthem Of Our Dying Day
Dunno who - Ai Rang Wo Men Ji Mo

Pretty fun day today, woke up early at 8am, for the sole purpose of sending a SMS to jie ting and adeline for helping out during the global conference, which is pretty... nice of them.

Cos' they have to go back extra by themselves, one morning and one afternoon, for the express purpose of escorting the guest speaker for the conference to the stage (as if he could get lost), but anyway guess it makes for 'decorum' and all that.

The shittiest thing is i have to do the exact same thing tomorrow.

Anyway, after that, i managed to crawl out of bed to go East Coast to meet some friends (Jack Steph Val Christian) for cycling/blading. Fun fun, if it wasn't so damn far away i'd go more often.

Finally in the evening, went to watch Shrek 2 with some other friends. It's a funny ass show man! If you got time and money go catch it... spoof all the fairy tales, then Puss'in'boots is voiced by Antonio Banderas, so if you watched desperado or once upon a time in mexico it's even funnier...

On a final note, i think for some reason the banana phone song, or rather the lyrics, is attracting alot of pageviews... i think i'll be taking it down, but i'll put up a link to download it... (because it's too late to get it off keyword searches)
I'll also be changing my blog layout... soon. Get down to creating a new skin.

Listening to:
Smile Empty Soul - Silhouettes
The Ripple Effect - Time Slips On By (super nice song must go hear)

happy days are here again~

tomorrow- going to watch troy with safuan, whom i haven't met for years...literally. Yay, and also going to pass jaiyme her driving book and stuff....

Today- went to church unwillingly as usual, since i'm an agnostic but can't really bring myself to tell my parents and break their hearts or something knowing their kid has become a godless pagan sinner who'll rot in purgatory for eternity.

BUT! i saw someone whom i thought was an old friend in church today, meaning i'll go back to church next week! yay! Long long long time since i even heard from her... janice. Last time i saw her was like....4 years ago.

A soft-spoken, gorgeous girl with oriental features and is super fair, like one shade away from being an albino, very shy when i first knew her, but then, we were all young shy asses back then.

Crikey... i'm afraid of losing all my old friends. Got too little in the first place.

Yesterday- went to marina south or something for lunch with my family, cos' my bro book out from BMTC. Pretty disappointing fare but for me, well, food's food.

After that went over to jana's to collect some stuff, cos' she going Manchester, UK for a credit transfer programme. Ended up i went changi to send her, jovin and dawn off, along with some 19 other peeps, from DBF and DAC, saw jackass, val and co there as well, who were there to see psyduck dawn off.

So fun man, wish DMC has something like that... go overseas for five weeks to 'study'. Then next week some others going off to Tokyo, Japan for the MILE programme, like carol and wern ming i think. So so so so fun. It's saddening that because media n comm is a new course, we're not going to have such stuff because it's not so...established and stuff.

According to blogger.com, this is my 90th post. whoa that's fast...

Anyway, a summary of today was, wake up, play with peggy, eat lunch, go watch zatoichi with andrew the ass who make me go borders to meet him when the movie is at cine, then go home.

Tomorrow doesn't look much likelier to be more happening, with a duty stint for the sparc cca booth during freshman enrolment... sianz...

I think i'm getting bored of my blog, don't really feel like putting in any effort or thought in it. It's becoming like... a calender?

Few days into holidays already and i'm becoming really really bored. At first i only had two objectives, work on getting my driving license, and training up by myself, so i can get into shape to enter .....All-styles or some other crappy tournament in Singapore at least, want to compete at least once before i get too old like... 22. Which is only ... 4 short years away.

Soooo now in between running, reading basic theory, and watching movies....i'm spending 3/4 of everyday........sleeping. i need to find something else to do man... everyone else has ITP so i'm like the only one that's free nowadays...

Listening to:
Massive Attack - Special Cases
Chemical Brothers - Setting Sun

Feeling really pissed off right now. Mostly at myself and a little bit at a couple of other people.

Kinda lost my temper a little earlier like, cos' of a gradual anger build up over a few months or something. My poor dog which was trying to play with me got a little rough, i think cos' she pms or something, and i got a little rough back. she must be thinking what the hell is wrong with me today man, feel bad about that. Later go apologise to her...

The catalyst for the afore mentioned behavior was probably because of a couple of my fucked up classmates, who agreed to join the freshman orientation programme together as facilitators. Then eventually one by one tua me for the first fac meeting tomorrow, with excuses ranging from a legitimate interview to no fucking reason. at all. Fucking hell, not even my idea to sign up in the first place.

Well. Fuck you. Fuck you if you're reading this. In all fairness, this is probably due to my still feeling pissed right now, which i suppose everyone does once in a while, and misdirecting my anger, but fuck you nonetheless.

Well now that's out of the way, watched Van Helsing today, cool show! The brides of Dracula are hot hot hot!! One was Josie Maran i think... and kate beckinsale was hot too!! I think i watch the movie mostly for the babes in it... the only flaw would probably be the slightly retarded storyline...

Cheers!

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abit can't be bothered to blog now.

Urgent post!

Ladies and gentlemen, i present to you, the best song in the world.

Tell everyone you know.

In other news, one paper left, i've not studied at all the whole day, instead played DR3, and before that a shitload of battlefield 1942 with a whole bunch of DMC guys.

So in essence, i'm fucked for AM. but i don't care....i've got the banana phone~

Boop a doop a doop
Boop a doop a doop

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone
Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone

I’ve got this feeling
So appealing
For us to get together and sing, Sing!

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone
Ding dong ding dong ding dong ding Donana phone

It grows in bunches
I’ve got my hunches
It’s the best! Beats the rest!
Cellular modular interactic bobdular

Ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone
Ping ping pong ping pong ring pong ping Ponana phone

It’s no baloney
It ain’t phoney
My cellular banaular phone

Don’t need quarter, don’t need dimes
Don’t call a friend of mine,
Don’t need computer or T.V.
To have a real good time
I’ll call for pizza! I’ll call my cat
I’ll call the white house, have a chat!
I’ll place a call, around the world
Operator get me bei jing jing jing

*Instrumental* Yes, Play that thing, Whooooo hooooooo

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring Banana phone
Boop boop a doopa doop
Ying yang ying yang ying yang ying Yonana phone
It’s a real life momma and papa phone
My brother and sister and a dogga phone
A grandpa phone and a grandma phone too, oh yeah
My cellular bananular phone
Banana phone, ring ring ring “It’s a phone with a peel”
Banana phone, ring ring ring “Now you can have your phone and eat it too”
Banana phone, ring ring ring “This song drives me… banana’s!”
Banana phone, ring ring ring

Boop a doopa doop, doop doop!

Listening to:
Banana phone!

Caught Beautiful Boxer with Marcus the other day, goot show. hahahahaha. movie bug now got exams. Show's about a country tranny who is talented in Muay Thai, then fights all over the place, in different provinces, ultimately at Bangkok's Lumpini stadium, which is like the premiere place for the best boxers to fight. All that to get money to take care of his family and get a sex change operation. Of course, this motivation is very newsworthy and soon he gets alot of media attention because he puts on make up to fight, and then kisses his opponents after each fight. Wahahaha so cool. Anyway, i think that's really brave, daring to be what he wants to be, despite social pressure to conform, furthermore he/she excels in Muay Thai. hahahahaha wonder which camp/gym she trained at.

Next, managed to finish a couple of novels the past two days, which is fcuked up because i stayed up to read finish. David Baldacci's Split Second and Jeffry Archer's Sons of Fortune, and totally neglected my MLE. Hahahaha, but the books are damn engrossing.

Now starting on MLE, sianz.

Listening to:
Maroon 5 - Shiver
Spineshank - Beginning of the End

had M&PP paper earlier yesterday apparently, then shifa called me and asked me to go main library to watch Michael Moore's bowling for columbine, which is a documentary on americans' gun toting culture, pretty amazing and also damn funny in a way. The show was about how compared globally, americans shoot each other alot more than the rest of the world, then they were analysing for causes, the administration, the media, violent films, their history of cowboys and reds, annnnnnnd.... Marilyn Manson.

Whoa, had to admit before today i didn't really think much of him, supposedly satanic songs and all, but in the show when Michael Moore (the filmmaker) interviewed him he seemed surprisingly normal and mature by conventional standards, especially when he was asked what he would like to say to a couple of kids involved in a high school shooting. His answer was, to paraphrase, not to say a word at all, instead listen to what they have to say, which nobody gave them a chance to.
Now i respect marilyn manson... anyway, go watch the show if you haven't already. huge backlash from US citizens all over forums and shit i think... pro and anti gun peeps, arguing for their rights to keep guns, and stricter gun control laws.

Personally, while i can sorta understand the various viewpoints of gun proponents, protection in a high crime rate area, constitutional or state rights, 2nd amendment, and my favourite, between needs and wants, it's up to them what they want to own, i.e. house, cars, and by the same token, guns. Individual determines his own wants for self-actualization. you know what you want, go for it. only the strong survive.

On the flip side, IMHO, it's partially because the media perpetuates alot of violence and crime i guess, so people get desensitized, numbed to it, and take action to prevent the same thing from happening to them, enter guns under the pillow syndrome. in the show, stark contrast man. US media shows murders, robberies, assaults on the news daily, breaking regular programming sometimes, the canadian news? wahahahahaha. Breaking news: New speedbumps! LOL. but they don't lock their doors at night? that's where i want to retire or live one day...

Another reason would be the gov and it's policies. the current administration's tendency to 'help keep the peace' everywhere with the strong arm of military technological superiority and the presence of nuclear weapons. Now there's a good analogy, the nukes are agreed to be dangerous, disarmament a dream held by many. Think about this. guns and nukes. people and countries. everyone has 'em, but no one really wants to have to use them, but because your enemy may or may not have them, you gotta keep yours ready.

Now a central tenet of the show is the difficulty in exercising gun control, and a plea to disarm and get rid of your guns is going to be heeded by NOBODY. it's the same thing, while nuclear holocaust is something no one really wants, WMDs have to be maintained for retaliation purposes, it's a matter of self-defence thru the threat of massive, albeit mutual destruction. Don't shoot/nuke me or i shoot/nuke you back.

But i think sooner or later the US' highhanded ways of solving political issues, as a 'big brother' sort of thing is going to backfire, people adapt to their national culture, become like their country. If they are showing that they use violence and money to solve problems (think sanctioned assasinations and secret funding of foreign armies), then naturally their people will grow to think of that as the most effective way, and bowling for columbine reflects that.

(I put the US as US because then it won't show up on keyword searches, learnt from Ms. KWA! HAHAHAHAHHA, cos' i dowan ISD or something tagging me as communistic or a political dissident)

Anyhoo, they're probably going to end up as a militant state, owned by fiscal powers, such as financial institutions and big corporate conglomerates with hefty foreign assets, backing the gold standard all the way, what with dollar devaluation. GOLD is...tangible, it inspires trust, it lasts, not to mention how little of it there seems to be.

They'll probably have the military as enforcers, because an army needs moolah to work. who's to say that isn't already starting to happen? i mean the gov needs dough too right (esp. since the avg. S2S missle costs over 500k a pop)? all the big bucks come in thru corporate funding, not for nothing is sponsorship (M&PP wahahahah), so what are they getting for their muhnee?

tax concessions? legal benefits for big companies? favourable new bills passed? it's an investment! the gov can really help you grow as a company, building permits, land purchases, stuff. $$ helps. it's like they say, you gotta spend it to make it.

k i think i'll stop about this here. don't want to get taken as a radical or left-winger. Comments pls post on the tagboard or e-mail me!!! but i hate talkin abt serious stuff usually, dunno y write so much crap today. DISCLAIMER: everything here is my own opinion, possibly derived from different sources, but do not reflect a political representation in anyway so don't buttfcuk me abt anything aye?
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Moving on, Shifa and I then trooped our way down to orchard to meet the '03 fcukers, Jethro, Clarence and Daniel. Played LAN for about half an hour when there was a blackout, followed by a walkout, which is like abit mean cos' the poor auntie there very pek chek and looked very flustered trying to appease a whole bunch of caucasian kids.

Laters, jethro succinctly put it this way, she so stressed, better not to disturb her, let her concentrate. What the fcuk man. hahahahaha. anyway, let me tell you a little more about jethro, who's a bloody lameass cockhead joker, a typical conversation that went on earlier during dinner:

Shifa: Eh, 快点去叫leh.

Jethro: leh.

Shifa & I: *Momentarily stunned* *Then start laughing as we get it*

Me: Okay lah, 你们先去叫lah.

Jethro: lah.

Can really smack his face man. furthermore, earlier on when we were at the cybercafe, getting our coms, we were discussing what to order from the snack bar.

Cybercafe lady: *after telling us our com numbers and stuff, overhearing us* 你们想叫什么?

Fcukhead Jethro: ÎÒ叫Jethro, ÕâÊÇChris, ÄÇÊÇShifa.
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The three of us, shifa, jethro and i finally made our way to dhoby ghaut to meet up with my class guys, who had been playing LAN right after the paper, which means 5 freakin' hours!! that's nuts man, the last time i played anywhere near that length of time, i was in sec 3. Crazy.

When we got there, the guys were already in the process of leaving in drips and draps (is there such a term?) so three of us just chiong battlefield 1942 like mad for a few maps, shifa being the WWII nut he is, enjoyed it so much he didn't want to try desert combat...

After playing a couple of hours, we went to paradiz center for dinner and a little arcade cos' there is buy 1 credit get 1 free. so not a bad deal. Talked cock with the two of them for quite a while before heading home.

On the bus bumped into hazlinda also on the way home...hahahaha coincidence, think she has a damn cute voice. Bought a big gulp from the new 7-11 near my house, FINALLY there's a 7-11 here that i can walk to, went home and slept.
Woke up about 4 plus and you now see the results of my hunger-induced insomnia.

WHOA THAT'S A FCUKING LONG ENTRY! think it's cos' i feel relaxed now, got breather before the next paper, law crap. anyone wanna study out? and hopefully watch movie as well, i wanna watch;
beautiful boxer(my idol! {the muay thai champion part, not the tranny part}),
zatoichi (blind swordsman, which is cool)
50 first dates (need to stock up on adam sandler...)

k that's it. what a fcuking long entry. imagine how much i could have studied instead...

Listening to:
Disturbed - The Game
Norah Jones - Humble Me
Moren Tea Estate - At The Edge
Staind - Outside
Catatonia - Road Rage
Starsailor - Silence Is Easy

it's five fucking am now, and i've decided things about mpp i don't think i'll say on my blog, since it's a public thing and ANYONE can read it... hahahaha

sianz. decided not to sleep at about 2 cos' i thought i'd sure have problems waking up, kinda regretting that decision now but too late. flipped through notes abit but most of the night was spent playing games... hahaha kinda losing what little focus i have for school stuff.

hungry now... bye

Chris is a Giant Squid that will turn back into a Human in the morning, is Covered with a Thick Slime and Blind, carries a Flamethrower, and has an Extra Head. Strength: 6 Agility: 1 Intelligence: 11 To see if your Giant Battle Monster can defeat Chris, enter your name and choose an attack: fights Chris using Strength Agility Intelligence

progress on PRMP! 3 topics left! hahahaha today, i didn't sleep. was playing spellforce through the night till about 10am. dammit i need to concentrate.

anyway, was late for my dental appointment today but luckily still managed to see the orthodontist. i'm finding the two malay admin nurses there increasingly hot, for some strange reason. maybe cos' there's no one else to look at there.

Recently, i've been getting loads of new songs from friends, so happy. can feed my mp3 player new stuff.

On a final note, exams begin tomorrow. good luck to everyone but more luck to me, god knows i need it.

Listening to:
Snow Patrol - Run
Arkana - Life Is Free
Hooberstank - Out Of Control

quick post.

just checked my cca points and i have 83 so far. which is good enough for me. HAHAHAHAHAH! 45< is A with merit, and only top 5% of point earners get Distinction. Well i'm happy with A merit, which translates to a 4% boost in score for applying for uni which is about as good as i'm going to get.

Anyway, i'm lazy to study for PRMP, on topic 5: Consumer Relations so that explains why i'm blogging. Tomorrow not sure if i'm meeting up with ubèrgay B³ and his harem to study, if u read this SMS me. natters.

Ending off with a quote today, from http://www.bash.org, which is a goddamn funny site of irc quotes. but abit dirta tho. so on second thoughts, don't go. Don't even read the quote if you're either a girl, or a guy who acts like a girl.

-Humans are unique in the world as the only species to have sex facing each other. Over time, females evolved and developed breasts to attract males, by resembling the butt.- or something like that.

Listening to:
Seether feat Amy Lee - Broken
Dadoo feat Leslie - P'tite Soeur

Everything's finally done! CAs, projects, video, whatever.....it's all done! Now only left four more papers to go and another sem down.

Can't wait because got lots of plans (in the works) to go overseas this holiday....like....i think 3 malaysia trips pending. -_-'
So anyhow, today was spent doing WFM Ca in the morning, and then DVPA editing....which we were hoping to finish by 2....but then it dragged....and dragged.....and dragged.... adding in audio tracks... counter...title slides... shit like that...till 6:30!! Fcuk.

Will try uploading to let everyone see our wonderful video if possible.

Then the class bloggers, Kwok Hao, Dennis and I, who seem to be going out together alot more recently, than is normal for supposedly heterosexuals went Holland V to play retarded Warcraft III hero maps for 2 odd hours. Like non-stop play as a hero and single handedly destroy the enemy base kind of maps. Fcuk.

Okay i'm bloody lazy to update my blog with a lengthy entry so ....till next time. and i changed song again.

{extra} i just realised my blog is getting text heavy with no pics. since i lazy to take pics or upload them i shall steal from dennis again. uploading random pics from school for no reason. Everything is taken from Dennis' hp.

(All names have been changed to maintain confidentiality Except one.)
Our PTN Mr. XXX XXX XXXXX
The infamous Ms. Kwa Lay Ping
Soft toys are fun for grown ups too!
Me.
Everytime i post pics i have to have at least one with no comments. This is it.

Listening to:
Mini & Gu Er - Bie Ku (sure that's the right name KH?)
Thrice - Deadbolt

Yay changed song again.

The more i listen to this one the more i like it. Thanks Dennis for all the Norah Jones songs.

K i go back and do my AM now...today's gonna be a hectic day. AM presentation, Vietnam presentation/speech/dammit, jonathan's birthday but i didn't get him a present, and meeting up with Ahmad to chiong i think.

Listening to:
Sarah McLachlan - Fallen
Penny Dai - Shi Jian Kuai Zhuan

whoa i like my previous post's timestamp. anyway, later got sparc duty so gonna miss my AM CA....sianz.

and i'm putting up another song hahahaha so can choose wat u want to hear when on my blog...i so considerate hor... juz pause n play on the right side...

k now shld i play halo or go and sleep.... :P

Think since it's the last week of school, fewer people go to school... which is good cos' it leads to earlier dismissals... anyway, now i'm supposed to do my presentation stuff for tomorrow and prepare a survey or two... which explains why i'm blogging.

*Don't read the next paragraph if you're alan*
Anyway, finished school early today, and went to play LAN at holland, then home and fell asleep...woke up at about 10+ then watched TV till now. missed my 11pm deadline to send alan my portion of mpp proj so send lata... anyway he's probably busy messging denise to go for a movie...

The last couple of days was pretty uneventful as well... watched Xanda with the guys, kena cheated. i thought it was some cool new style of mixed martial arts or something when i saw the ad in the papers, maybe like vale tudo or ufc ala Asian version... it was actually... SanDa, as in Sanshou the chinese kind of tournament in a ring or square (lei tai) that favors striker/wrestler combi fighters, think kickboxing + judo rules, point based competition.

To be precise, it means no knee n elbow strikes = kickboxing, and sweeps and throws allowed up to 8 secs ground grappling to get submission, instead of the 15s i think in judo.

Annnnnd... it's a PROC film, with cheena cheena actors/accents/action. waaaah piang china so big got 1,286,975,468 people (July 2003 est.) cannot get better looking actress. Anyway, abit retarded la. will hopefully be watching zatoichi soon and hope hope it's good or i go and bang my head against the wall.

Listening to:
Jolin Tsai - Ai Qing San Shi Liu Ji
Penny Dai - Hei Yan Quan

handed up finance report today, sian ½, after school went off to far east plaza to meet up with jude for a drink before heading off for a movie with some old friends... today is -meet-up-with-old-friends-day. chao ta mango also came far east cos' her friends hadn't arrived yet.

whoa, tattoos more expensive then i thought... jude apparently wants full body tattoo kinda thing...which is cool, but will cost....lemme think, about $10,000 ? waaaaaaaaaaah liew. cos' one leg abt $1500... and that's cheap according to him. hope he doesn't do his head though....was trying to convince him against it in case he ever had to find work as a suit wearing drone. madness.

after that, watched hellboy wif lin,faiz,jacq and faiz's brother. Pretty unremarkable movie with cookie cutter plot and filming style.
more remarkable was the sheer number of ppl i bumped into at plaza singapura today, dunno why so 'lucky'.
first up was jeanette 'amanda', nastasha n co, den evon the dwarf queen and her beau-of-the-day; den Adam and Phillip thomas who were from ACS as well, den finally the whole bunch of sparc/dmc/god knows what else ppl, i.e. jaiyme jana andrew jack valerie dawn and can't remember liao.

anyhow, good friday today, so i'm off to bed. thanks for reading u bums. go study or something.

listening to:
Jamelia - Thank You
Maroon 5 - This Love

Despite belief to the contrary, i think i'm posting quite frequently neh... today is cos' i'm not in the mood to do EOF project now... soooooooooooooo;
Ms. k w a aka lecturer-who-goes-around-peeking-at-students'-blogs told a couple of my classmates and i that she found our blogs thru keyword searches, therefore i now have to take better care not to say anything that may come back and bite me in the ass. -to her: eh i don't think this post'll show up on any search results so ha!-

Moving on, helped the 'ah lian' group in my class for their film, see, we have three basic groups in my class, the guys, comprising of the fags who usually post on my tag board, the 'ah lians' and 'guai gers'. Anyway, ah lians are : evon, mango, adele and gen, (in no particular order hehehe) plus wei ling who cross over from the other group.

Acted as... Neo, from like, the matrix, but think i ended up looking more like a flasher pervert with dark glasses and trench coat. Ah well. it was raining when we got to the park where we were supposed to film so ended up went to chao ta mango's place to stone. could only film after seven, but it was a pretty easy role, no action, just sit down and talk talk talk.

Okay that's all. back to doing my finance project.

Listening to:
Incubus - are you in
bryan adams and barbara streisand - i finally found someone.

WFM CA's done too. just got a new one, law. bleah. Trying to destress myself cos' otherwise i'll have my period again...

School blew by pretty uneventfully, hahah but still had alot to do cos' of the rest of the day, in the evening i went for confession at the church of St. Ignatius, first time in a year i think... told the priest, father J J, who's an old friend of the family coincidentally, how i was losing my faith in christianity and all that...

what he said put me in a very pensive mood. he told me that suffering, pain and joy is what establishs us as humans, or something like that...... and if my life is all peachy keen and rosy, without suffering, without pain, probably i won't feel much of a need to go to church or pray.... only in adversity would we turn back to god... hmmm... it actually makes sense to me, cos' right now i think i am kinda stuck in a rut, no big happy things going on but no problems either...
that's not to say this theory doesn't have flaws in it. i became an agnostic because of pain, problems and the suffering i see around me in the first place, not because of a lack of it. kaoz.

going to have to think more on this...

ANYWAY, after that my parents and i went down to Holland Village for grocery shopping and for me to get my supper... whilst waiting for them to check out one whole cart's worth of 'oh just for tomorrow's breakfast', i saw a scruffy old south indian man in a faded shirt and sarong trudging along the corridor outside the cold storage, he was examining the dustbins, picking up used cigarettes, hoping to get a puff...

I remember thinking that that really shows what's wrong with most of the world, i'm not a communist or anything but seeing this kind of smoker, poor until need to reuse hongkie, in an area with so much affluence, just seems odd.
Wealthy people seem so at ease seeing, or rather ignoring other poor people, at most they'll move out of the way, not out of courtesy but rather a desire to avoid touching them.
Singapore's capitalist stance has created generations of moolah seeking drones with no regard for people-interaction and people in general.

And then i saw Denise Keller in cold storage. Fwah she's hot!!! also tall man.. was with this shorter guy who can compete with Dennis for the title of volcano face.
Her face is so beautiful i could almost ignore the visible layer of obviously oil-based make-up on it, with a svelte figure, very proportionate... has charisma too... the kind of attractant that just turns heads... woah. Gorgeous.

Well, that's the end of another long post... what have i learnt? Absolutely nothing! hahaha tomorrow's another day! chillz!

Listening to:
Incubus - Made for TV Movie
Norah Jones - Above Ground

Hi everyone! Feeling pretty good today, cos' filming for DVPA is DONE! For my group at least......now only acting left...

Since we had to lend Dennis to Adele's group today for filming, our shoot commenced at 5, which means that from 1 -5 Runjian, Big Balls Ben, E.K. and I went to netspielz to play LAN. Again. Came back and hooked up with the rest of our gang, Alan, William and Evon to film firstly at the vietnamese cafe in SP.

After that we only had one story left to shoot, the love story where the guy ,i.e. B³ dies from passive smoking cos' of his 'gf', the Dwarf queen Evon, so we bustled along to Holland Village to have our dinner and listen to the Dwarf queen complain that the chicken rice was tasteless, nevertheless both Dildo Boy Dennis and I finished ours... then Pasir Panjang Village to shoot a scene at a pub, culminating in a death scene. Shot in my room... furthermore i'm the corpse's body double. hahah cos' we trying to accomplish an effect where you see the body then the person's soul leave...

Now only left with WFM ca to due at the moment due on Friday... ahh well.

On a last note, i'm trying to stop using vulgarities again. Please hit me on the head if you hear me saying fuck. thanks.

Listening to:
Incubus - A crow left of the murder, zee deveel, pistola

my days are just getting more and more interesting.... i went to the doctors today for what i thought was a stomach infection, i.e. worms and all that...but happened to be something else...

so the doc tells me to turn around and lie on my side and take off my pants... while putting on gloves and rubbing ky jelly on his index finger...'relax, this won't hurt' and rams his nose picking finger right up my arse!!! 'relax, your rectum muscles is contracting' how the fcuk can i relax with a wriggling digit up my sensitive prostate man!!!!!

ok.... so then he gives me gastric medicine and another course of treatment for after that.... reminds me to eat mroe regularly and that....turns out it's probably a return of my good ol' stomach ulcer but now in the duodenum... which is bloody scary!!! cos' if the medicine doesn't take and my duodenum is perforated n bleeds and stuff ( the veinous thick kind not the thin type that u get from a finger cut), they'll have to take another gastroscopy (sticking a tube down ur throat to see what's in your stomach wif a lil camera) EXCEPT...since it's the duodenum n nearer the intestines, they'll go thru the ARSE!

wish me luck.

on another note, i think i'm blogging alot more now.

today was a long and pretty sad day. sa-turd-ay.

started off well... sparc AGM at 9 which i had to wake up early for successfully for once... went okay i think but missed out the handing over ceremony part cos' had to go help get refreshments. niahia... end up i have to carry one bloody big container of ice water which was like damn heavy... -cue lan jiao bin-

then went down to orchard for a while with jack jaiyme and jana to grab something to eat....ended up at MOS burger, then walked around abit to look for some present and we (jack and i) ended up modelling shirts to choose a birthday gift...... following which we went paragon the dim tai fung or something with the supposedly famous xiao long bao to try...
it's DAMN NICE! hur hur hur anyone want to treat me.... $8.50 for one basket of 10.....which reputedly has at least 18 folds in the skin......very very nice...=)~ . also ate the egg fried rice and some prawn dumpling which is xiao long bao + prawn... ALL DAMN NICE!

okay that was about it for the happy part of the day...

met up with ahmad and samuel later at paragon as well....sat at starbucks then zhi wei came along... i may be throwing their names ard like i know them damn well but actually i good fren with ahmad only... then drive drive drive to pick up benny. Following that, we went to an mrt station to link up with bryan and ken s. , old acs(barker) peeps, then went down for a fren's funeral wake.
met up with a helluva lot of people there that i haven't seen for a long time....like...since graduating from acs.

my fren sean passed away yesterday... i didn't really know him that well but he was a really caring dude... when i was kinda drunk n puking by the sidewalk he was the only guy who came up to me n made sure i was okay then... den i still remember a few hours after that when we were all eating a very late supper....at like 5-6 in the morning... he was the one puking like non-stop by the drain the whole time we were eating...

why do people commit suicide... isn't it like the easy way out? leaving behind all ur problems means someone else still has to clean up.....probably your loved ones... then it's like you'll never know what a person is really thinking or going through so something seemingly inconsequential to you could be really serious to someone else... forgetting to return a call, missing out subtle signs of distress.....

i guess i'm writing all this down just to say... cherish the people around you... show u care... i mean, u don't know when they'll, or u'll be gone.... so juz appreciate everyone and everything while you can... don't be afraid 2 express your love, be it bgr, brotherhood, family, whatever..... something small 2 u could mean the world to someone else... farewell sean... none of us will ever forget u...

-In memory of Sean Png Hao Jie-

following the seeming trend to post lyrics....i shall post it of this song....it's bloody old but i'm listening to it now for some reason....haa
7th Standard - Half closed eyes

Can you guess why it's so easy to see the world
Through half-closed eyes at times like these?
Enough dreams
Would it be so beautiful here

Your place, a Friday night
What a waste, you're selfish, nice
Get in the car and take me home
I'd rather be away alone
I leave the house to think things out
I make my own mistakes to use them up
I walk from yours and I give up

And we'll make this, but we'll fake it
Both alone and obscure
I wonder what it feels like
To get out of your way just like I should...

I see the sky, the moon, the stars...
And I want to be right where you're at
Someplace where everything is small
And nothing matters
And in between where it feels good
To fall asleep without any sheets
And feel the soft go beneath my feet

And we'll make this, but we'll fake it
Both alone and obscure
I wonder what it feels like
To get out of your way just like I should...

For the most part
Like a breakdown
Another shot of screaming, pure
Hollow inside, insecure
And feeling sight like everything matters...

I know I have something to say
I really don't know what to say

Can you guess why it's so easy to see the world
Through half-closed eyes at times like these?
Enough dreams
Would it be so beautiful here
(abbreviated) nyahaha

hokay today was....a learning day.

went to geylang to meet an old friend thinking we were just going to get something to eat and maybe chill for a while. bummed around with old friends, made new ones and also...

learnt alot abt singapore sex industry instead... hahahaha really eye opener man... shall not go into explicit details... but i didn't do anything. i swear!

ANYWAYs, filming commences tomorrow and i hope it turns out well man.....alot of shit going into this dvpa project. the things i do to get acting talent. sheesh.

Listening to:
Wang Xin Ling - Beauty and Dang Ni
-thanks kwok hao for lending me the CD-

aight sorry about being unable to see the pics earlier. for some reason they didn't show up and i couldn't see cos' at home my IE doesn't show the refreshed blog........

so on the advice of dennis i've switched to mypicgallery.com.

chillz!

listening to my old ancient songs now... plugging thru some tutorial....dunno for what also...would probably be easier to skip the damn class. haaa projects and stuff still coming up but i think i'll be okay. gotta find another dude who can smoke like a pro to act in my group's anti-smoking film. Eng Kiong was saying how ironic it is we'll probably be paying our actors in an anti-smoking film with cigarettes...

aight i'm off. chillz and thanks for reading, as always. bums.

Listening to:
The Calling - We're Forgiven
Blink 182 - What Went Wrong
Blessed Union Of Souls - Hey Leonardo

still can't read... worst still can't hear new song i uploaded. hope u guys can.

end of another week... booring. stuck in a rut except it's going faster and faster, cos' of friction i guess...or rather lack of it.
projects CAs and what not....hahaha

best part of the day was probably having supper with marcus again at the prata place....which i dunno why but he seems to enjoy going there so much... but i'm not complaining, since it's just outside my house.

damn that tubby ass looks fitter now man... army really can change your life, but he's still as retarded as ever, was telling me about the three...oh sorry, two escaped dudes in tekong which is why they had to stay in camp and run loads of rounds instead of going jungle trekking.... as well as the dudes from the much publicised Kilo platoon aka. super fat asses platoon, and how now they're like fighting fit and stuff......like i said... army really can change your life....

Anyways... before that, during school found out a little more about my lecturers, e.g. how law lecturer, pretty straight laced prim and proper ms. peters cheorographed and organised a strip show for the launch of the SB newsletter, from Ms. L³(Low Lay Leng), who's the head of our course.

Not to be outdone, ms. peters then told us about how biddy ol' ms. low was being 'picked up' by a really young guy who was actually a magician at this event they attended...

god i hope this never reaches their ears/eyes. **=i use the title ms. in front of their names cos' i respect them as teechers, unlike rajan. may the fleas of a thousand camels infest his asshole and may his arms grow too short too reach.

Okay this is getting to be a pretty long post but what the hell. i wanna x box!!!!!! i'll fail school and drop out for sure but i still want an x box!!!! anyone knows roughly how much and where to get modded one? pref. either like can toggle config/card for xbox live and um...economical version games.

what else did i wanna do.....oh yeah. pictures. like long overdue ones of the bintan trip i wanted to post but too lazy.
ahhh here they are... kudos to jack for the photos...


lazy me. just arrived and already going to sleep..

pic of the go-kart circuit which was pretty fun but cost 20 bucks a pop...still cheaper than sg. considering it's higher powered = higher risk = more injury prone.
plus, there was this notice that said all customers got automatic insurance, nice enough to list amounts too...
In case of:
Death : S$10,000
Permanent disability: S$10,000
Hospitalization: S$3,000
yep. reassuring.

the seafood restaurant...we paid about 80 bucks i think for a really great meal... black peppa crabs, snapper, mussels, squid...the works. :)~

ehh the path to the resort beachside at night...like a scene out of survivor...

ehehehehehe this was when all of us went for massage but i only posted my own pic cos' i'm a narcissistic arse. just kena sunburn then go...
pool bar!!!
in case you didn't think so... it's a pool bar.
ehh... i dunno what to write for this one...

aight this is when going home liao...go there sleep come back sleep also...

okay that's all i can be bothered to upload. i'd post video clips but i think my blog would get taken down cos' of unacceptable content.

cya! and as always... thanks for reading, you bums. go study or something.

ok this is really faggy. till now i still can't see my posts on my com. ah well.

went for a run earlier, got renewed motivation to go into training...hur hur hur. projects like mad this week and the next i think....filming schedule, dunno how many other projects and stuff...crap.....lucky is same group for like.....almost all of them so project meetings won't clash and stuff.

still no new music cos' dunno where to download. boring man...

finally, i think i'm getting bored of spellforce cos' i finally managed to finish the bloody game. with an anti-climatic ending. which comprises of a continuing circle of storyline. which is a very lame reason for you to replay the game. basically the bad guy goes back in time in a portal and grows old and becomes a good guy after years of pondering... so he tries to stop the bad guy(a young version of himself) but fails and is killed. meanwhile the bad guy goes on into the time portal and grows old and.......

nuts.

alright that's all for today. thanks for reading you bums.

hmm something wrong wif my blog or my IE. seems like my newest posts never show up on my com.

anyway today i went late for project meeting for DVPA, drawing cartoon/anime looking thingys for the storyboard cos' ms. kwa say no stick figures... haven't mounted it yet tho.....then a couple of us left dennis' place after that while a couple of guys stayed behind to... watch some of dennis' archives of other video productions...

went for lunch/dinner with runjian at mos burger and crapped a helluva lot...

now at home feeling a little sick, dont' feel like going school tomorrow... as usual. to end off, damn u eng kiong! i'm still addicted to spellforce...

okay referring to my previous post. am i liable to be sued for slander?

...

nah guess not.

Anyways, today i was doing the SB achiever's day and final assembly thingy... had to wake up early, wasted my time but the only good thing that happened was that my 'xian nu xia fan', who's this girl i had a crush on a long time ago was helping out too!

so managed to make a new, or is it old friend. ah heck.

slept thru most of the day. was supposed to meet marcus for supper or something but he never called me, just as well~

Lastly, Peggy's pregnant...can't wait till she gives birth.....all the super cute german shepherd puppies~~!

hokay. long time never blog liao... ehh lemme see... well on friday i had a pretty memorable media tutorial..here's how it goes...

i go into class late as usual, but class quite empty leh..which is pretty unusual cos' i'm always one of the last few ppl to get in... *shrugs* then later Alan tells me that Rajan is taking over the class today.

That explains alot. Like why there are so few people in class. They knew that fat bastard was subbing for that day... i forgot, otherwise i wouldn't go either. Dammit.

Anyway, he managed to piss us all off within half a minute i think... quotes from Mr. Rajan:
"I don't like to wait for people" "can only blame your parents for bad upbringing" (wtf) "nobody's better than me!"

okay that's about all i can remember.

in conclusion. fuck rajan.

okay just a quick note before sleeping.

tomorrow school starts again...dammit, spent my one week hol like so fast...... attended a three day first aid course... hahahahahahaha funny instructor, tell alot of funny stories. was with my darlingest shifa, ming xuan carol ning and hafiz on the course... took up like half my precious holiDAys...

then went bintan with jack jaiyme jana and andrew for a couple of days, stayed at mana mana beach resort, go beach tried out jetskiing, go-karting and the damn banana boat but didn't get to go parasailing....:(

got burnt and managed to burn almost all my money too... hahah brought back like 1 carton of indomee which is damn nice but i later found out sg got bring in......... -_-'

okay that's about it... will post pics when can, till then, damn u eng kiong for telling me to buy spellforce....now i'm addicted to it...... >_<

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
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dammit. i gotta go sleep or find something better to do... nutters...

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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kiez......SPECIAL POST!

dat's right folks, a special post today just for one topic!

the stupid system in the editing suite 2 in the DMS crashed a couple of days ago, cos' somebody deleted the wrong thing.....so for about 10 people i think, have to redo their entire video editing sequence and what not...... ordinarily this wouldn't be of any interest to me, except that i'm one of the 10 people affected.

So this post is simply to say: fu.....*i'm supposed to not use vulgarities anymore*..... ummm...oink.

in other news, i'm looking for places to download music from now... if anyone knows of any pls leave a tag...

chillz!

Listening to:
Yolanda Adams - I Believe
Blaque - I'm Good
(Featured off the OST for Honey)

nyahahahahaha caught a couple of movies over the weekend, cold mountain and honey... cold mountain's one helluva long show...more than 2 hours i think, but good... more gratitious nudity than i'd expect from an nc-16 flick tho... but inside got natalie portman!!!!

ok moving on, today watched honey, a hip-hop show abt a dancer/cheoreographer, the movie's cool man! music's good, chereography's tight, altho a bit retarded at some parts, and jessica alba's hot! damn...

oh after tt went to maxwell road for dinner with my family cos' my dad's birthday, belated, anyway, ate till damn full man....what a happy day... schoolwork and other problems can wait for tomorrow......hahahahahaha

my resolution for this week is to watch more movies... >_<

k finally got down to putting music in. thanks dennis!

long time never blog liao..hahah busy and lazy i guess. had a pretty mundane day today, went to school attended class and stuff...main thing is my dvpa thing is finally starting to come along abit...but comparatively i'm still lagging behind all my classmates i think...hahahaha and i finally have no tests looming ahead just yet.....just tons of projects.

right now trying to dream up a 30second script for my on cam presentation tomorrow...which reminds me to remind me to wear formal. yay, can wear the shirt the sparc peeps got for my b'dae... i think...gotta check the color tomorrow..hope it's not blue.

i want to watch movies..... but no idea what movies are cool right now...and abit no time to watch....oh well... opportunity cost and all that...

k i better go off and do now... cya and thanks for reading u bums...

in ict lab again, abit odd considering i'm in sb. anyway just finished school, extra long lesson by my fav teacher ms. peters, for Media laws and ethics or something, can't remember the module name. Had alot of fun discussing euphemisms for going to the toilet, (such as 'doing major export business', 'seeing a man about a dog' and simply asking to go toilet and 'winking') and earlier during my first tutorial, cos' we discussing the merits of breast cancer prevention bras by victoria's secret......

Incidentally, i came late for the first tutorial, but our wonderful HOD Ms. triple L marked all of us, (and there were alot) latecomers present... hahahahaha

Anyway, the reason i'm blogging now is only cos' i'm still in the ICT lab, waiting for yvonne to finish surfing the victoria's secret website, which she's looking thru with gusto. perverted girl

woke up late today and went for my second lecture only...hahaha
cos' it was raining then i couldn't find a short umbrella, so better to stay home and watch full metal panic with my bro and dog...

found out about more CAs and group projects, then we had some fat man come in to give us a talk to encourage more people to sign up for BPNV(Business Planning and New Ventures), a free elective that DMC students can take, cos' we all need to sign up for at least 3.

Anyway, cos' BPNV only got 19 peeps who signed up, including me, Dennis and Runjian, and they needed 40 to justify starting up a class, they got fat asthma ma to talk a little more on the course, fat man, who incidentally is the head of business studies and of that module, did his best and i'm not sure if he managed to convince any more people to sign up, but if the 19 who did sign up could change their preferences, i'm pretty sure at least 3 would...

ok enuf abt him. i'm in an ICT lab now blogging cos' i nothing to do, better sign off now, braces uncomfortable but i think i'm adjusting. hahahaha

bye and thanks for reading u bums.

cripes......that's a quiz for girls......

oh well.....i'm in touch with my 'feminine' side.....

listening to:
Blink 182 - Mutt
Jay Chou - Yi Fu Zhi Ming

Waaah! You're so LOVABLE! Everybody likes you,
because you're a great person to have around
and it's always happy about everything ^^.
congrats! and...can I hug you?? plz! ^///^


Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!)
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hahaha actually too lazy to blog so juz put quiz stuff on.....nyahahaha

You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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muahahahahahaha angel wings....! happy new year everyone! this is a cool quiz...

oof....feelings effects of a sedentary lifestyle... never do much for a week liao, feel very lethargic and headache and all that...cripes. will have to remove stitches tomorrow n go to school and meet all my wonderful lecturers who've been so worried i've got so many zeroes in my attendance.... hur hur hur.

whoa....didn't sleep the whole night.... don't know why, odd. now abit headache, hahahaha ah well.

was reading this book yvonne lent me, called 'The Good Women of China' i think, shocking read, was a narrative of sorts of this women's experience of how women in china were being treated before, during and after the cultural revolution and all that, different parts of the country too.... cripes... really, really, well, shocking.

Really some f**ked up things going on then... ok just like to say i really despise any kind of person who'd force himself on another, or get the girl drunk that kind of shit.... man...

Ok enough on that, before i get too carried away or something on the subject... my little vacation's coming to an end, my MC expires today! hahahaha which means i gotta start going school again, damn... was getting a little bored anyway.

that's all for now... will be going down school later to meet andrew for lunch i think, and maybe meet up with zi shuang to kick him one last time before he enters NDU...

heyo! was supposed 2 go for school today but didn't feel like it when i woke up, so just kept on sleeping till about... 3 or 4 i think....can' remember. Anyway, day's events went like this, ate lunch, took antibiotics, played zero hour, watched bubble boy, played zero hour, ate dinner, took antibiotics, played zero hour, went out for supper with hazzie, marcus and his gf, joanna, now back at home bloggggggggging....

hahahaha went out to the prata place just outside, syafiqah restaurant, really cool 24hr place with wonderful and individualistic staff and chefs.... everytime i go there i can order the same thing, and different items will appear... hahahaha, so fun to eat there... despite my gums complaining with every bite... can't stand it.....miss proper food too much. it was fun catching up on old times tho....

thanks for reading, you bums!

listening to:
Soulflip - Head Massage
Our Lady Peace - Clumsy

k juz changing the time....now i finally realised my timestamp is screwed up...hur hur hur or before tt didn't really bother.

hahaha bored-ed stiff... can't stand it.... stay home too long will go nuts... anyway, today was a good day... went out with yvonne with absolutely no plan, ended up gallivanting all over singapore and managing to catch 'school of rock' too... pretty funny show but abit draggy at parts....ahhh well~

the main thing is i got to spend time with her. hee hee. was thinking of writing down what we did today, but figure that'll be a little... i dunno... too detailed? stalker-esque? or three kinds of psycho... so that's that. i love yvonne! ^-^

after that i bumped into MARCUS TUNG my best ol' buddy on the way home... so we took the bus back together... hahahahaha kickback to the old days.....damn, i miss that tubby bastard... he's going into army this wednesday tho... pretty fast, still and all, good to see him again, and just so everyone else gets to see the fat f**k....

copped this off his friendster account

to end off this post... my teeth hurt. but damn if that's gonna stop me from eating what i like! chills~ and as always, thanks for reading, you bums.

listening to:
Fuel - Falls On Me
Eve 6 - Here's To The Night

being at home the whole day's really, really boring.....


You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."

Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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this is a pretty cool quiz tho....results all sound cool...hahahahaha chillZ!

hahaha still charging my mp3 player so haven' left yet....plus i'm famished....sooooo.........


Reincarnation: You are nice enough to go to heaven,
but Earth won't be as fun without you. As a
real optimist and lighthearted person, you
always see the good in things. People probably
respect you for your wonderful personality and
love for life. People like you make the world a
happier place (please rate my quiz)


**Where will you go when you die?**(now with pics)
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heheheh think i lied on the quiz?

school started, pretty sian but okay la.... hate hate hate sitting in front rows in lecture cos' then everyone gets to see me sleep, cos' i kinda sprawl over the entire writing pallet... hahahahahahaha still was a pretty good nap, cos' aided by the mystical abilities of AA... whom i swear hsi lulling powers have somehow increased in potency over the last couple of months...

went hospital to get 9 teeth removed couple of days back...wah liew...wake up feel damn seh sia..... drifting in and out of sleep... but at least it was a successful op, despite bleeding enough to probably donate blood liao... gonna get stitches removed this wednesday, and if everything goes well in 2 years or less i'll have nice straight teeth... yay for braces!

yvonne came to see me at the hospital, but went to the wrong bed instead....hahahahahaha even tho it was pain to laugh i couldn't help it... so farnie!! wahahahahaha! but seriously, i thought it was really sweet of her, even tho she was tired and was pretty busy then... love her for it~ then the next day, dear yvonne came over to my place to see how i was doing, made a boring and crappy day worth it, just by being here... didn't do much, but i feel really glad i was able to see her... hahahahaha


Ehh...a pic of me and yvonne at cineleisure the day of the big walk... still had fun tho......always have fun with her.. hahahaha can't stand it, always so euphoric ard her... lovesick~

anyway, supposed 2 b resting up at home today, cos' scared of infection, but still gonna go sch later i guess, pick up my notes, drop off a b'dae present and surprise yvonne! hahahaha hopefully she doesn't read my blog before then... cya! n thanks for reading, u bums.

yeaaaaah! new year's come and gone, school'll be starting soon, abit sian, but don't mind returning to school, can see all my friends again...hahahaha

'counted down' at Yvonne's fren's (Pei Fen) place, with a few of her friends, had a good dinner, steamboat, and managed to meet a few new people, which is pretty cool.. Lionel, Guan Yik, Qin Yi, Pei Fen, Choo Hui and Joey, plus assorted boyfriends.

after that, every1 decided to WALK to Cineleisure. from sixth avenue. to catch a 0230 movie, Mona Lisa Smile. Ended up we walked, took the NR bus about half way there and paid 3 bucks each to go a few stops (Tanglin Mall to Cineleisure). We still missed the movie, and there was nothing else for us to watch so we sat at Cine till... about 4 or 5 i think, bumped into Trammy from my FO class and Ceresah from dmc/01, geez, that kind of time still can find such 'niteowlz'...

breakfast was at S-11 next to Nat. Library, had mee sua, ate with yvonne, pei fen n her bf, whose name i really can't remember but he's a really nice guy. :) and then after that go home lor.

happy new year!!!!!

Listening to:
Utada Hikaru - Time Limit
Semisonic - Chemistry

oh yeah happy new year...

heh, days went by in a flurry of activity, feeling pretty tired and kinda stoned at the same time now, never blog so i dunno which days did what either. =P

let's see what i can remember....been going out with Yvonne alot, almost everyday i think... hahahahaha having lots of fun, went spca yesterday i think, my first time there. went shopping too, don't know why but shopping can tire me out really really fast, *shrugs*.

met up with ahmad couple of days ago too, man he is f**ked up now... company he keeps too.. supposed to meet only for lunch and a couple of drinks, ended up going past dinner and waiting for the first bus back... went to a couple of clubs and a ktv lounge... hate drinking man.... still forced to, bloody hell.

listening to:
mandy moore - have a little faith in me
christina aguilera - the voice within

Fight Club!


What movie Do you Belong in?
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hahaha see, dennis! hahahahaha! eh okay, it's 5:16 in the morning and i'm really bored.

okie went shopping today with haslinda... supposed to look for x'mas present but didn't find much...except get naaaaagged at for being so undecisive..=þ

collected the photo reprints as well, nyaaaa cost me a whopping 47 bucks! oh well, worth it i guess, now have all the shots from the vietnam trip, juz need to scan in before i can post.... (thanks jack)

also went Great World City with Andrew, supposed to watch Scary Movie 3 but no timeslots cos' it's still showing as sneaks, ended up eating at Country Manna again....every bloody time i go there with him i'll eat there. cripes.

Saw Wei Jun at Precious Thots too... hahaha she was busy tagging stuff or taking inventory or something that she kinda shooed me away from the place...

okay that's all. cya and thanks for reading, you bums.

listening to:
No Doubt - Spider Web
Starting Line - Make Yourself at home
Puddle Of Mudd - Control

wheee it's my birthday today hahahaahhahahahahahahah!
happy birthday to meeeeee~

juz went to Andrew's place for a 'party', left my speakers there for him to enjoy, last i saw he was pretty drunk but still on his feet, cos' his frens keep making him drink.....wahahahaha

sadly, yvonne's going to malaysia today so can't spend my b'dae wif her....oh well, there's always christmas....hahahaha

anyway, i suppose i shld write abt the vietnam trip now but i'm still really lazy so i'll juz post a pic and be done with it.....hahaahahaha!


The traffic conditions in vietnam, really cool, can just walk across the road casually, the motorists will avoid you! Hahaha



Hahahahahaahaha group hug... actually it was us piling on top of the birthday boy, Jun Wei, then, at the end of the trip i think every guy that went got piled at least once... =P when you're bored you entertain yourself...


okay this pic has a really funny story behind it. The three of us went to buy 'bear biscuits' for everyone, so we ended up carrying two boxes around, and then we went to this famous vegetarian restaurant in Hanoi just because we had free time and wanted to take a motorbike ride... so we whipped out the map and just pointed at a place far from where we were....=P

listening to:
Fefe Dobson - Take Me Away
Michelle Branch - Breath
The Offspring - Hit That

yo! back from 'nam but waiting to reprint photos then scan in so i'll post what happened there along wif the photos

(i'm juz lazy to blog now....hahaa)

but in summary, damn happy!!

listening to:
liberty x - holding on for you
atomic kitten - if you come to me

off to vietnam in the morning...dun miss me too much

listening to:
the sound of my keyboard being tapped

=D

stole this from andrew's pic gallery, go there to see more pics, i lazy to link more... anyway, the point is....do i look fat?

hahahahaha, juz got back from the SPARC camp. pretty fun at times... tired out now...but cant' sleep yet.....gotta go watch desperado, cause i downloaded it just before i left for the camp but had no time to watch it then sooo.... =D

listening to:
Oleander - Fountain & Vine

new post. added andrew into list of fren links. hahahaha go check him out if you're into serious reading.... i mean u really gotta concentrate to read thru manz....

anyway, i'm gonna be going to vietnam (ha noi, but the countryside) soon, not exactly sure what i'll be needing there... anyone have any better idea or knows of stuff i'll probably need pls leave a tag...thanks..hahaha

listening to:
marilyn manson - redeemer
lifehouse - somewhere in between

been pretty busy lately, got lots of shit to do, but today i'm free! all free! gonna spend my precious free time slacking...

members of extended family came down to sg earlier to visit my aunt, will b lunching wif them i think... okay i'm off.

listening to:
jay gordon - slept so long
lacuna coil - my wings

hahaa...exams finally over... pretty tired now... but wanna blog abit before going to take a nap.
thx 4 e well wishes haz n ray, feel better now...

anyhow, holidays are here, planning to go all out and start training regularly again...since my sifu's gone to the states i'll be switching to hilltop muay thai... hope i can survive there..... >_< don't want broken limbs...
sifu's planning on instructing thru a webcam tho.wonder how that's gonna turn out....LoL, gotta go get an AOL account soon...

anyway, after ecm paper today, the last paper!!, went orchard wif a few of the sparc peeps, sleepy like hell, so left early , juz after lunch... also cos' i was being beaten, pinched and stepped on (literall) by them...so wanted to save myself, got a pepsi x, the new energy cola drink they have on the way back... tasted...not bad...but typically like an energy drink, and i juz don't like those. =P

sheesh, i've been drinking soft drinks like mad cos' of the exams.din noe why till my fren told me caffeine gives a memory boost.... at last count.... 8 1.5l bottles, 9 pet bottles of coke, vanilla coke, root beer, pepsi and 100plus...hahahahahaahahaha crap, think i'm gonna turn retarded now....

music: loads of new musicfor me, but mostly old songs...
puddle of mudd's away from me <- really, really really, good new song... really.
Third Eye Blind - the background <- old old song...but unreleased or something i think, i don't know, never bought an album.
Default - deny, finch - ender, afi - ever and a day, the starting line - given a chance. oldies but goodies!

long time never blog....too long i think... got two more papers left, should be a pieceacake....

lifewise......fucked up.....i've suddenly been slapped in the face about mortality...the 2 aunts i'm closest to are stricken wif cancer and stroke..... my oldest aunt, the one who brought me up and made me who i am today.... she underwent a second operation 2 remove part of her intestine.... den when i saw her yesterday she seems to have lost her fighting spirit, no longer the strong person i've always looked to for direction and how to be a good person...

my third aunt juz suffered a stroke... the day after they all came down for my bro's 21st b'dae... paralysed on her left side.... fighting hard 2 regain body movement.....and i can't even go to the hospital to see her....cos' fucking nuh got some shitty ass rule about no visitors under 21....

damn to hell.